Wars Yesterday and Today

Before, nations were the ones at war. Now, the war is between man and nature.

Last Day of Voting (Friday, July 9, 2010): Achiever Scholar Program - College Level

Guys, especially to those who wish to support me. Tomorrow yung last day of voting for the Achiever Scholar Program, til 12nn. I do not have any roving cans nor campaign managers, but I believe that your genuine support will be my fuel. Ako lang talaga ang lumalapit personally sa mga kakilala ko, and I ask them to vote by the heart. Still, salamat sa inyo. Text me to meet me if you want to vote, wala na kasing booth. :)

Please keep the votes coming, cos I think I only garner 1/4 of what my 3 greatest (voting) opponents have. I really need your support dahil 20% din ito. They get thousands of pesos a day while I only gather barely a hundred to two hundred. They have big givers (100, 200, 300, 500, 1000 increments/votes), but I don't think it's the quantity. Just as the Lord looks at the heart and not the outward deeds -- like the Rich Man and the Poor Widow giving their offering, yet the Poor widow gave more in essence. That is my only fallback whenever the votes status bring me down.

Still, thanks to those who believe in me and give good amounts. Even a single vote counts and I appreciate it. But big thanks to those with the conviction to give amounts like 50 or 100 and such.

If you wish to ask me my reason why I joined the Achiever Scholar Program, please do so. I try to keep it to myself and some close friends as much as possible because it is a very personal matter to me. Kaya, this program is a very big thing for me.

God bless us and may His pure will be done. :)

The Reason Why I Joined the Achiever Scholar Program. :)

The Reason Why I Joined the Achiever Scholar Program. :)

Note: this is a long read. But please bear with me. The main points are at the last lines, although they are scattered all throughout this note (beginning, middle, etc.). My parents were from UP. My 3 kuyas were from UP. I wanted to be like them, a scholar. But during late elementary and high school, my dad lost his job. He was jobless for 2 years. It affected my schooling. I couldn't take exams because I couldn't pay any tuition. The school year ended with me not being able to take the exam. I was badly affected by our financial situation. I didn't perform well in school. However, my peers and professors always believed that I was a bright student, that I can perform. Only that I had a bad attitude, which I believe was the effect of my financial problems. I lost confidence in myself because we didn't have enough finances to support my academic endeavors. We had just enough for daily expenses like food and etc., but an excess was rare. I am a 7th of 8 children. So, not only was it a difficult thing that my dad lost his job. It was also difficult because he was supporting 8 children. Wala pang graduates that time. Nahihirapan na din mga kapatid ko who were in college. As said earlier, I wanted to be a scholar, yes. It was an aim -- I wanted to follow the good footsteps and example of my parents and my elder brothers. But due probably to our financial situation, I didn't have good high school records. I failed the UP exam (the only school I applied for) even though I had high exam results (grades won't be mentioned). I tried to apply for reconsideration because the results were considerably high. However, they couldn't because I applied for quota courses. I again tried for reconsideration at UPLB. I almost got in, but at the last part of the application/reconsideration process, I got rejected because I didn't apply for UPLB. It was the first lesson of the Lord to me. My mom insisted I apply for UPLB, but when the rain ruined my first application form, I filled up a new one, and changed my campus choice to UPM instead. Lesson: listen to your parents. I was rush-enrolled to DLSU-D. The start of my being a Lasallian. All the while I intended to transfer to a UP unit, specifically UPM, after a year. I had good school performance, the top in my BS-IT batch, all sections/blocks included. Guidance councilor has the records to prove so. I felt confident that my application would be a breeze. 1st year ended, and I convinced my parents that I'll apply for UPM. They insisted that I go DLSU-Manila. I didn't feel it because I am only a simple person. I don't know a thing about other universities, altough I'm starting to like Lasalle. And, I'm not an elitist, which I thought of Lasalistas. Not english-speaking, etc. It was too prestigious and intimidating. UPM didn't process my application. They didn't consider my TRED subjects as academic courses, and there was a misinterpretation. They informed me late and reconsideration was a mess because the slots for BS-Computer Science were gone. They will only accept incoming 2nd year students. I wasn't meant for UP at all. I got back to DLSU-D. After a more successful 2nd year (participated in a limited-slots, by-invitation leadership potential LTS, run for College President under an independent/non-popular political party, saw more what it is to be a Lasallian), I applied for DLSU. My reason for applying for DLSU was because I wanted to achieve something in my college life. I wanted to get the most out of my education. And it was the time that I was feeling more confident because the Lord was slowly and steadily blessing and providing for my needs. But, we aren't really rich. We just had good enough. My youngest brother (next to me) just graduated high school, and he was going to UST. I realized that I was the only one left in the province to study (Cavite), and I think I deserve a level-up (study in Manila) for my good academic performance. I was afraid I won't get accepted by DLSU because of my past experiences. But, when I learned how to give it all to the Lord, and trust in Him no matter what -- when I learned how to humble myself and not focus too much on my own plans, but to trust in the Lord's purpose -- I passed. :) My arrival here at DLSU, for me, was the start and go signal for me from the Lord. It was the start of my quest to achieve and attain my goals -- success. One of the goals I wanted to achieve was to be part of the Achiever Scholar Program. During my first year, I saw an advertisement about it, but I still wasn't eligible for it. I waited til I was. That was the first time spark I had that made me desire to apply for the program. It was a seed sown in my heart. Last year, 1st term, I went on LOA. I met an accident. It was an important term because SAN-DES (an important pre-requisite major course) was offered that time. I missed it and got delayed. But, I believed that the Lord has a plan for me, so I accepted that fact. Last year, 2nd term, I got good grades again. The rest I had from the LOA made me see who I was again. The Lord refreshed me about His plans for me. I had good success again all thanks to the Lord's grace. Last term, (3rd term) I was eligible for the Achiever Scholar Program. It was my chance. I wanted to join, and my friends were coaxing me to do so. But, nobody nominated for me, and I missed the chance. Last term was my only chance to graduate on time again and get back on track. But, to do that, I needed to enroll 4 major subjects all at the same time. I thought that it was my last chance to be qualified for the Achiever Scholar Program because it was impossible to get a good grade after the term. Even the honor students of my batch/course told me the same thing -- that I shouldn't take those subjects all at the same time. They strongly disapproved of my decisions. However, some of my friends encouraged my by saying that I can do it. I sided with them. A miracle, however, happened after that term. The Lord showed me that He can do the impossible. I got good grades in my last term. It was the term that I got the highest number of units earned. I also survived a course that I thought I'll fail. With God's grace, I got a 2.0 in a very difficult course that got a lot of students failing. It qualified me for a DL. For me, that term was one of my greatest academic achievements! I joined a lot of organizations the moment I stepped into the grounds of DLSU-Manila. I thought that it's just what I should to in order to reach my goals. But, I came to a point that I had to choose what I really want in life. I should look for what the Lord wants for me, and what I'm made for -- not just anything that I see and I know I can do. That for me was God's sign that He can do the impossible. It was also His go signal for me to apply for the Achiever Scholar Program. Now, I'm facing new challenges again, but this is just to prove that God has His ways that I do not know, but they for sure are for the good. Actually, by faith, He makes known to me what He is about to do. :) Now today and the rest of history is yet to be written. Although I know they already have been inked in His book -- and all of it is good. :)

PS

Those who supported me deserve to know. I thank all of you. Bukas na po ang interview and deliberation. The Lord bless us! :)

Minsan nakakahiya mag-share ng something about you because di mo naman alam how other people will take it, but this was a leap of faith. I think you gusy deserve to know a part of me, since a lot of you supported me. Salamat sa inyo! :D

My Opinion On Agra's Term (Ampatuan)

Sometimes, we get tangled up in something so big and so chaotic and powerful that we lose control (of our actions) because of the things that are happening. Maybe, just maybe, that's what happened to Agra. He was blatantly used by 'this system' that he had no other choice but to 'go wherever the wind blows'. He can only look forward. He might have been just a chess piece in the whole game. Dunno. It might also be really difficult for us if we were in his situation. He chose to be indifferent so he can escape the system unharmed by the system. Things in the Secretary's seat might be way more complicated than just serving justice then you're okay. Just IMO.

I'll Try To Be Stronger.

"I'll try to be stronger. Maybe we can enjoy each other's company more that way. :)"

Why Do I Like You?

Right now I am asking myself why I like you. It's just that I want to check if my feelings for you are still reasonable, and that I am not just attracted to you skin deep. So, why do I really like you?

You are simple.

The first time I saw you, I felt intimidated. You, to me, were really beautiful. You dressed wonderfully, you definitely can present yourself well. I thought that I was your stark contrast. However, after a few revelations about your family background; after some short words from your mouth that I got from eavesdropping (yes, I did that out of interest, hehe), I found out that you were actually a very simple person, that you won't look down on people that others might look down to. And, what impresses me most is that, you can do that despite your affluent disposition.

You are sweet.

I see how sweet you are to your siblings (you just don't know how 'observing' I can get whenever I get the chance to be around you-even when you think I am not looking, that is the time that I try the hardest to observe just to get more information about you, hehehe. I just don't want to blow my cover up too early, nor spoil the surprise). I have never been that consistently sweet to my siblings, and I am just awed at how you can do that all the time. I just want myself to be as sweet as that. And, maybe if we get closer, you can share that attribute to me.

You are sunny.

Although I do not know you that well (mainly because I am too shy to get to know you, and I am the type of person that would rather be mysterious, and break everything down in the end to create a big surprise ala 'save the best for last'), I feel comfortable when I'm around you. Yes, I do, even if I just stay silent. Even if I only get to speak a short while with you. Even if I only hear your giggles from my view when you're seated afar. And, it's actually quite funny because amidst that comfort, I feel uneasy when I'm around you--a feeling I can't explain nor describe. I sometimes become really spontaneous, or become too clumsy.

What other reasons do I have to like you? Maybe that's it, or maybe there's still more hiding from my sight. Maybe you are just a code to decipher like that of a grand jigsaw puzzle that once I finish, I'll appreciate my efforts the most.

:)

School Tormentors

1) obnoxious groupmates

2) boring professors

3) impossible subjects

4) long breaks!, and

5) etc! :p

PS

I like the 5th one best!

To my Multiply page. :'(

Ohmygash, Multiply! What have I done? I have left you desolate! I must love you! :'(

Me Pissed Off sa mga Admin ng LP (Liberal Party) FB (Facebook) Pages + My Note to Noynoy (if he becomes President)

I can't help but generalize that all LP (or Noynoy) related FB Pages' admins are just plain crazy and baseless. Nakakakulo ng dugo! You're just there having good and constructive conversation with open-minded people, and then this administrator, that I cannot ever understand bans me with no definite reason at all (is it their job?

Are they asked by higher close-minded authorities to do this? Or should we blame them authorities for recruiting such close-minded FB Page administrators?) Sinisira nila ang good conversation, ang good exchange of ideas from 2 sides of the coin. Instead of being more open to different ideas (those that don't even go against the Page), they're doing something na sobrang nakaka-piss off.

Parang onti na lang and maniniwala na akong walang freedom of speech dito sa Pilipinas. Nakakaasar. Dahil may mga taong pipigilan kang mag-salita talaga maski tama ka at walang ginagawang masama. Beware of the people who do these things.

Argh. I really hate groups like that. May mga nakakausap ka nang mga matitino. Lagi na lang kapag LP na Fanpage, kapag nagbanggit ka ng hindi sila sang-ayon, particulary yung RH bill, edi ibblock ka na. Mas open minded pa yung mga members nila makipag-usap kumpara sa kanila.

Sinabi ko lang na I didn't know Risa was fighting for the RH bill, and I was against it. I said my opinion about Risa, pero ended up saying that maski against RH bill ako, I still might support her (which I will do come elections day). Pero, I checked kanina sa FB Wall ko yung Risa Hontiveros FB Page, I can't even leave a comment. I wondered why ako na-block. Ang naalala ko lang naman na comment ko is yung sa RH bill. SUPER CLOSE MINDED.

Hinanap ko yung RH bill na issue, ni yung mga members dun matino reply sa matino kong mga tanong. Tapos yung estupidong admin, dinelete lahat ng posts ko dun and blocked na ako. It perfectly reminds me of my Noynoy FB Page experience na pinagtanggol ko lang si Villar sa mud-slinging nila (and sobrang tino ng pagkakatanggol ko, sabi ko lang wag nating gawin sa iba ang ayaw nating gawin sa atin, and as Noynoy's supporters, we should know better because we reflect what kind of Noynoy supporters we are, and hence the name of Noynoy as a candidate).

Anong ginawa nila sa akin after that concerned reply? Binlock, nireplyan with harassing comments. Parang sissy pa nga yung admin cos he was saying na bakit hindi na ako nagrereply, isang oras na daw... malamang, binlock mo ko. Duwag ka? What a demonstration of abuse of power. Dapat mas responsable sila.

Eto ba ang pamunuan ni Noynoy? Nako, kung ganito, edi maghahanda na akong magtiis. Dahil maski tama ka at maganda ang ginagawa mo, di ka pwedeng gumalaw.

Now, back to Risa Hontiveros. Nagtataka lang ako. Pareho silang under LP. Tapos parehong experience ang dinanas ko. Dalawang beses pa. Mas mild ng lang tong kay Risa Hontiveros... Pero, golly. Naman! I-block ba naman ako dahil lang sa hindi ako Pro-RH? WOW men!!!

I've taken screenshots of the original post, and I'm posting a link of that issue. Kaasar lang sobra.

Noynoy, kung manalo ka man, I know you deserve my respect. I used to support you. I just got this feeling that you'll win, but I'll still vote for who I think should best rule our country given the Philippine's situation. Kaasar ang elections, andaming paninira, andaming mud-slinging. Andaming tulungan. May imbalance of power. Pati media nagagamit sa paninira ng tao. May kinkilingan, ika-nga. Nakakaasar na. Pero, back to what I was saying, Noynoy, or Mr. President Aquino (if you become one), I'll respect you. Hindi madaling maging presidente. Pero, ang panalangin ko lang para sa iyo ay magkaroon ka (o kung mayroon man mas mabuti) ng kakayahan at lakas na ma-prove wrong yung mga tao sa mga nakikita nilang mali sa iyo. Hindi naman ito impossible. After all, para sa mga Pilipino din ito.

And, huwag ka lang papagamit sa mga masasamang tao. Laging magtiwala at tumayo sa pananampalataya at sa Diyos. :)

God bless the Philippines! The elections is quite scary, di mo alam mangyayari! Whew!

Achievements of #42 Papin Imelda for Senator

Reposter's notes:

I didn't expect that she's got these credentials. Well, this is an interesting one. :)

Start:

Vote #42 Papin Imelda for Senator

- First Female Elected and Re-elected Vice Governor of Camarines Sur (1998-2004)
- Most Outstanding Vice Governor in the Philippines (1999)
- First Vice Governor that brought Mobile Dental Clinic to the Philippines from Queensland, Australia
- Brought Mobile Medical Van ( Mini Hospital w/ Bed) through her own efforts
- Scholarship Grants to more than 1,000 students
- Championed Women's Rights and Concerns
- Helped and Protected Abused OFWs
- Free Dialysis Treatment for the Poor
- Supplemental Milk-Feeding Program for more than 3000,000 Malnourished Children
- Construction of School Buildings in every Municipality
- Building of Integrated People's Centers in every Municipality for the usage of the youth, senior citizens and the women sector
- Protector of the Oppressed and Disadvantaged
- Promoted Cultural and Artistic Activities
- Spearheaded Environmental Awareness and Ecological Preservation Projects
- Legal Assistance to Prisoners
- Sagip Buhay Program (Support for Typhoon and Volcanic Eruption Victims)
- Disaster Relief Programs
- Only Filipino who hosted a telethon show in America for the purpose of raising funds for Mt. Pinatubo Victims through the auspices of the International Red Cross
- Held First Gay Olympics to recognize the contribution of the gay Community in Nation Building
- Assisted the Elderly Citizens and the Disabled
- Peace Mediator and Conflict Resolver

RECENT AWARDS

The United States Government recognized her exemplary talent as Philippine Ambassadress of Goodwill and Support to the Filipino-American Communities through the following awards:

Honorable Harry Reid Senatorial Certificate of Commemoration
Honorable John Ensign Senatorial Certificate of Commemoration
Honorable Shelley Berkley Congressional Recognition
Governor Jim Gibbons Certificate of Recognition

The 9 Immediate Programs of the Imelda Papin Agenda Towards Peace, Progress and Prosperity

1. Declaration of "National Unity and Reconciliation Day"

2. Provide a copy of the Constitution of the Republic of the Philippines to every Filipino Family as part of People Empowerment and Participation to know their basic Rights and Privileges & establishment of I.A.P Centers (Information Assistance for the People).

3. Enact a Rescue Bill as an Immediate Response to Poverty and Hunger through "One (1) Employment for Every Family" with a combined efforts of the Government and Private Sector.

4. Declare the "Philippines as the "Eco-Tourist Destination in Asia" and as the "Quality Entertainment of Asia".

5. Establishment of State Colleges, Vocational Training Schools in every Municipality and Availment of the Educational Loans payable within 5-10 years upon Employment.

6. Immediate Assistance Program (IAP) to OFW's by putting "Help Desks" in every Municipality.

7. Additional Hospital Benefits to Senior Citizens at the age of 60 an additional of 20,000 at age of 70 an additional of 30,000 and at the age of 80 an additional of 50,000.

8. Creation of national Women Cooperative with or without Collateral for their Self-Reliance and Empowerment.

9. Establishment of Government Hospital with complete Facilities in every Municipality.

Transparency is the name of the game.
Kung walang transparency mag iisip magnakaw ang mga nasa posisyon sa gitna ng paghihirap ng Pilipinas at ng mga mamamayan nito.
Free access to public documents, ensures transparency in the government.
Dapat itong masabatas kung talagang seryoso ang gobyerno na puksain ang corruption. Sino bang napuperwisyo kundi tayong nagbabayad ng buwis.....Ok lang magbayad ng buwis basta nakikita natin na umuunlad ang bansang pilipinas. (Vote #42 Papin Imelda for Senator)

LOVE STORY PICKED UP FROM THE NET.

~~ LOVE STORY~~ ♥♥ A girl asked a guy if he
thought she was pretty and he said no. She asked him if he would want to
be with her forever and he said no. She then asked him if she were to
leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face....

the boy... grabbed her arm and said... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... ♥♥ ~~THE END~~ ♥♥

A House Divided

Matthew 12:25 (New International Version)

25Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them, "Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand.

We Have A Ministry.

Isaiah 61:1-3 (New International Version)

Isaiah 61

The Year of the LORD's Favor

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, [a]
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,

3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.

Footnotes:
Isaiah 61:1 Hebrew; Septuagint the blind

Luke 4:16-19 (New International Version)

16He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. And he stood up to read. 17The scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written:
18"The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
19to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."[a]

Footnotes:
Luke 4:19 Isaiah 61:1,2

The Solution.

I need a Shield to protect me.

I need a Word to hold on to.

I need to know that You're near

So I can stand another day.

In the dark of the night

When I'm all alone,

You're the only One I can run to

And give me the Solution.

King of Delays

I told myself that I am going to write about a Plurk I wrote earlier. It was my stat, "Me be King of Delays". Yeah, I am a King of Delays. I so am. I wanted to write something about it that intense that I even thought of writing a poem for it. Right now, as I write, I am just not really certain if I will indeed write a poem about it. But, I just HOPE that one day I will... unless because of time, things have changed and I won't need to anymore.

I am a King of Delays. I have noticed how I delay things I need to do. One reason is because I always want everything I do to be the "right one" as I do it. It means that if it's not the "right one", then it'll need some "more" working on... hence, it's more tiring, and it'll need more effort from me. Effort that isn't as easy to give as one may think. As a result, I simply find most of my time spent in wondering when that "right time" is. Only then do I realize that I have little time, and then I rush, and then... I be on the verge of failure.

I still want to write more... but it's pretty late. I still need to wake up early tomorrow, do my personal Christian devotion and go to church, and later in the afternoon attend to my brother's "despedida" or farewell party, and then go to my classmate's pad for probably a two-night stay. This is for a project defense... and if time permits, others more.

Alas, this "project" is exactly just what I was talking about as I realized how I am such a King of Delays.

Noynoy's Leadership in Facebook Perspective (A Youth's Perspective)

Noynoy's Leadership in Facebook Perspective (A Youth's Perspective)

I've been reading some write-ups about why Noynoy should not be voted for as president this coming 2010. However, I do not intend to discuss anything about that. I only wish to discuss how disorderly and inappropriate the comments in Noynoy's Faceboy fanpage are, specifically those made by Admin-2 who calling himself as "Pogi". This is so because I believe that it has some bearing about how his leadership might be if elected. Let us not box ourselves, though.

Why I Supported Noynoy

I have been a supporter of Noynoy for a number of reasons. The greatest of them is that I believe that Noynoy's campaign is not for himself, but for the people around him. This can be good, but it cannot be denied that it can also be a bad thing. I still believed, though, that he is a great unifying tool. Filipinos are not really as united as they could be the last year 2009, except during the demise of our late President Corazon Aquino.

As a youth, it is a momentous and amazing sight to see people gather together just to express their gratefulness for President Cory. I was on the road the day that Pres. Cory was scheduled to be delivered to her mausoleum. The South Luzon Expressway (SLEX) was closed. And, at the time that Pres. Cory's parade was along SLEX already, people were gathering up, both young and old. In my mind I find it senseless because majority of them probably only know very little about who Pres. Cory was aside from what can be seen on TV and other media. I can say that because it speaks true for myself. I have a habit of not celebrating anything that I do not fully understand.

However, as much as I am against going with the bandwagon, I could not help but feel the sincerity of the people to extend their condolence. And, what I liked most about it was, being my first time to behold such an historical event, the way that I felt like it was surreal due to the flock of people. Unity might be the closest word I can describe it with. It was really historical. I have never seen anything like it.

Senator Noynoy's Outstanding Advocacy

After that event, people started coaxing Noynoy to run for President. It started out as a little impractical suggestion for me at first. I doubted that it would be good for Noynoy to take on that proposition because it would clearly be a display of him using his parents' names. But, as time went on, I saw politicians only seeking after the good of their own name. There were those who were fighting over who gets to bear the flag of being the next big politician boss. It was a tragedy. Nobody wanted to lay down his or her own crown (except, maybe, Senator Chiz).

Then again, Senatory Noynoy came back to the picture. He was the perfect tool to stop it all. He was not after his own name at all. This time, he was after the name of his parents (as he so declares in his TV "infomercials"), and the cries of the people who wanted somebody who could lead, and who could unify them. I believe that this is Senatory Noynoy's advocacy, and this is the reason why I supported him.

A Glimpse of What Noynoy's Leadership Can Be (In the Eyes of An Innocent Youth)

As a sign of my support for Senator Noynoy's plausible advocacy, I became a supporter of his Facebook fanpage. It was not something that I would usually do. I do not like tangling myself with politics and doing something that a lot of people would do. However, I found it worth doing. I even followed some of the admin's suggestion to add everyone on my friends list, which I did. Normally, too, I would not do it. I do not like being sent mass invites to, and so I do not wish to do so to others. But, I overcame it in the end. I have also noticed that I was posting on Noy's Facebook page some supportive articles about Noynoy.

It was until one time that I noticed a particular post of another supporter that mocked another political candidate. As a natural response, I commented on it saying that it was not appropriate to do especially on Senatory Noynoy's Facebook page. Proper respect and only appropriate content/comments should ideally be there. As Noynoy supporters ask the other camps to stop their trolling, I believe that they should also not commit the same acts. It is a simple application of the golden rule: do not do unto others what you do not want others to do to you. I added a comment to reverse the message of the post by stating some real facts just to balance things out. It was just a simple act of loving an enemy, even just in the field of politics.

"Trolling" (definition: informal Computing an e-mail message or posting on the Internet intended to provoke an indignant response in the reader) is rampant across different Presidential candidates' Facebook pages. The admins in fact always send messages against its practice.

The responses I received were the most unexpected and shocking of all, especially that of the admin's. Instead of the admin correcting and regulating the original post of mockery, I was the one who got banned. My initial reply post stated that we should not bash others nor play that/their type of game because Noy supporters know better. It was so ironic that it got deleted by the admin, considering the message. The admin then left my second reply post stating some real facts about the mocked candidate, just to balance things out. It then turned out, as wonderfully orchestrated by the admin, to look like I was a supporter of that "other" candidate whom another Noy supporter mocked. (But then, even if I really was, but sadly am not, I should not have been banned from posting any questions.)

Other replies started flooding in. Most of them approved of the mockery that the original post contained. The others threw insults at me. I did not mind it because I know that they simply do not understand the situation. But, ideally speaking, people should not hastily comment whatever the situation may be. It is simple wisdom in words. But then, I might also be a student if we talk about wisdom in words.

The most horrific reply was that of the admin. To be specific, it was Admin-2 who claimed his name to be "Pogi". He began throwing childish and cowardly insults. He even condoned and honored the original post that mocked another political candidate. The worst was that later, he started throwing questions directed to me like, "hey Matthew, where are you now? You've been gone for an hour. Seems like you've chickened out." He did that in front of his audience who were beginning to praise what he was doing. What's most funny and infuriating about it is that he knows I cannot respond to any of the posts, not even clear/clarify myself because he blocked me. In my head was the question if it was appropriate for an admin of Noy's cyber image to do that. He carried Noy's image over the internet, and he should be more careful with his words. Also, he is under Noy's flagship. Anything he does can reflect Senator Noy's name.

I got banned by the admin from posting any more replies. I wanted to clarify myself and protect my dignity. I also wished to save myself from being wrongly framed of being anti-Noy for I was not like that at all. The claim was the exact opposite of who I was, finding out later on that it might actually be a good stand. However, from thereon, I just could not reply anymore. Worse is that I got banned from using Facebook for a time just a few moments after the incident. Someone might have reported my profile as offensive just because of that. People I do not know might have done it.

I am not alone in this event. I can only speak of my own story, but there are others who experienced the same thing. In fact, that admin is also victimizing others by now. If people ask or show doubt about Senatory Noy's capabilities, or even just ask the simplest but most honest of questions about him, they get blocked for the simple reason that the question might not be the most favorable to Senator Noy. Admin-2 is even scouting for some of the people he banned/blocked from replying, then starts taking a screenshot of their names only to post it on Noy's page to be ridiculed by him and other supporters. What's more saddening is that others get sent foul words by Noynoy supporters on Facebook, by people they do not know.

What Do Noynoy Supporters Really Fight For?

Wow. Is that what Noy's fight is all about, since his fight is for what the people wants? Will the Noynoy administration not be able to accept any questions from civilians who might act unfavorably towards Sen. Noy? Will they only listen to what they believe in and close their eyes and ears from the others who do not agree with them? This is really saddening. What's more frightening is that Noynoy's supporter on Facebook is growing in number by the day. I can only hope that those numbers are not representative of the real turnout of votes. Because, from what those numbers have shown through their responses, I can only conclude that most of them are blind followers.

I think that one lesson here is that we should not only look to politicians or political leaders for solutions. We must also check if we ourselves have the right reasons to fight for. This country gets corrupted not only be our leaders' deeds, but also of our own as well. As I have shared to some of my friends, "the only corruption we can eliminate is our own".

Preparedness: An Ingredient of the Bigger Recipe

This really is not a reason for me to not vote for Noynoy. But, this event just gave me a picture of what could happen under Senator Noynoy's leadership. Yes, he might have noble advocacies, but is that enough? Unity might be a good ingredient for good governance. But, that does not complete the recipe.

Things should be done at the right time. Even our good Lord Jesus Christ exemplified this through His own life. He did not show up until the time was right, that was when He was on his thirtieth (30th) year. Only little has been detailed about His younger years, because it was simply just not His time yet. Yes, He was the Messiah, but He was not sent on to His mission until He was prepared, until it was time.

May God bless the Philippines!

Disclaimer: these are only my opinion. I hope that nobody take this against me. We all have our right to express our opinions, and I ask that mine be respected. I do not intend to go against any group or personality. I shared my sentiments to this group because I have faith that the members here have high respect for others' thoughts.

P.S.

Writer's notes: okay na sana lahat eh... wag lang sana yung i-block ako na gumamit ng Facebook para lang sa maliit at walang kakwenta-kwentang away-pulitikang yun? Pathetic! Hehe. :p

Jonathan Swift - "May you live every day of your life."

As Close As This (Konna ni chikaku de)

This is my translation of the song "Konna ni chikaku de...". Can't stop listening to it. Sooo nice. ;)

"Konna ni chikaku de" (こんなに近くで) is the Sound Track of Nodame Cantabile (yes, I watched and liked it, hehehe). I think it was played towards the end of the story. It was sang by Crystal Kay. Nice!!!

As Close As This

My translation of "Konna ni chikaku de"

I realized that love was this hard

The night I got right next to you

Because I know you more

Than anyone else does

Your casual kindness to me

Makes my chest feel tight

As close as this, as close as this is how I look at you

Why is it, why is it that we are just mere friends?

No matter how, no matter how strongly I feel for you

They just don't come to you, you don't understand

I'm so in love with you

And the moment you asked me,

"Are you alright?"

With a yawn I hide the tears and say,

"Maybe I need more sleep?", is my excuse

And now I find that I always lie

To the most important person in my life

And everyday, everyday because of this aching heart

There is just so many, so many sleepless nights

So let's start, let's start to bring back how we first met that day

If we could turn back time, it would be much better that way

I'm so in love with you

For I know that if I told you "I LOVE YOU"

We might not smile anymore like the way we used to

But I can't stay as your friend like this any further

Nor force my smile to last much longer

Honestly, honestly I loved you all this time

I always have, always have loved you

And to you, to you I want to send my feelings

That I whisper towards the blue sky

I'm so in love with you

A Glimpse Of Who I Am: Just A Reminder

"Keep your foot firmly planted forward, Matt", I tell myself tonight.

In one of my previous blogs, I've said something about how I was haunted by thoughts of being overwhelmed and overthrown by others, and the thought of not being able to bring out my best at things, especially where I used to excel at the most.

Tonight, things are much better, I feel.

Have I written anything in here about how I stop doing something I'm good at when people start flocking to do the same thing? Well, I might have not detailed on it before if I have. Let me do so, now.

I have been at a grave point of refraining from doing the things I'm good at when came high school. It's probably because of my foundation-shaking experience in transferring between schools during my elementary years, especially late elementary. As a result, I stepped into high school in an indisposed situation. Those years, too, were tempestuous years for my family as it was the down years when my dad lost his job as a senior geologist.

From there, I realize that the bolts that come to our life only zaps us up to ready us for a zoom.

On my first year in high school, at the first day, I was a late-comer because I was a late enrollee. Things weren't really certain that time when you ask me, so I don't know if I was really there in school, and if it's real enough. If it's indeed happening, it might very much be a rocky ride.

This explains why I wasn't the best person in high school; I admit that there were a lot of people who I pissed off back in high school, I used to play a prank on almost all of the professors, I used to do some petty lies about myself (that none really knew about actually) to cover up my insecurities (that, funny thing is, cried out loud actually), and some other minor nuisance I've framed. Right now, though, I just want to believe that they've all grown mature enough to understand me. It might just be me that's left who needs to believe in it.

But, opposed to what I subconsciously believed would happen, my high school days and years became gradually pleasant. There were still some struggles, but it's just now that I can see that I've survived and grown stronger in those years. I've adapted and had been resilient without me being fully aware of it.

My high school days saw how I started abandoning some of my strengths, talents, and gifts. For one, I used to believe that I was the best in the craft of drawing and related arts. When I entered high school, with raw talent in my pocket and probably some arrogance, I went on using my skill on the minimal. But, as the days and high school years went by, my passion and fondness for drawing and the arts started to slowly fade.

One reason I know why my attachment to the arts deteriorated is the thought of already being good in my skill combined with the thought of the "perfect time, perfect opportunity = perfect art". To put it more clearly, I have this internal rule that it's either I do my best and I be the best at my craft, or I shouldn't practice it at all. Also, because of the popularity of japanese "anime", a lot of kids my age began being delighted with the art of drawing. It pretty much became a bandwagon material, and I, being a non-conformist, had the only option of quitting.

Today, I've detected a pattern of my behaviour when it comes to something I do good at. When you kick in change, my steady pattern of excellence is shaken. That's when I start to behave in an erratic and unpredictable manner. But, it's not without me learning anything from my experiences. I have been trying to stress out a lot, as can even be seen in my previous posts, that I'm still trying to figure out my "own personal change". And, I guess, I'm doing great at it!

I can talk more about the details that led me to these realizations about change, but it will only prolong my labour.

So much for telling myself to flee from the mundane!

Just a while ago, while I was in deep reflection, I was telling myself that I will begin breaking away from the mundane. Specifically, I wanted to stop writing mundane stuff or fillers on my blog. It's been part of my struggle this last year since some major phase shift in my life. Now, it seems like I'm doing it again. Or not?

I guess that me writing about this particular entry, among others, just shows how different this is. From my personal inner feeling of contentment and actuality, I can tell that this is definitely not mundane. I cannot stress out any better, even in some of my previous blogs, outrightly said or not, that these words reflect who I am and who I am is a treasure worth preserving. These words are all over the place, actually!