It's not how much you have, but how much you need, and how much you can handle, that matters. It says a lot about fulfillment.
"A lot" does not mean satisfaction. It can mean "too much" or "too little" for those who can't handle it. "A lot" suits the person who knows what amount is right for him. And if "a lot" is the right number, then "a lot" it should be.
Why am I writing this? Because I just realized that I don't need a lot right now. I don't think if I was given "a lot" that I'd be ready for it.
"A lot" is a responsibility. How much responsibility can you handle? Well, maybe we can all equally take on responsibilities (no matter what the degree). But how prepared, and comfortable are we with responsibility? Responsibility requires commitment, and hard work. Feel free to add to that list of the requirements of responsibility. But it's not easy.
I have a habit of thinking of "I used to be this or that, etc." But what's important is "now". The past, its memories, can serve as points in time we can get back to when we want to have short breakaways from the current. But there is no use in lingering, and dwelling in them, while abandoning the present. And, we work for the present, expecting for something in the future.
I hope that in writing this, I am opening up a door within me that would allow me to take on responsibilities, big or small. I want to grow loving and fulfilling my responsibilities, so I can be prepared for more as I go. May this be a start.