Can I be blamed if I feel...?

Can I be blamed if I feel this way?
Can I be blamed if I feel sad when you're away?
Can I be blamed if I feel like you always have your way?
Can I be blamed if I feel like you want me to stay?

What can you say about someone who...?

What can you say about someone
who broke your heart
way before things have even started?

What can you say about someone
who mended your broken heart
after the same one broke it?

What can you say about someone
who asks you to prepare about the future
that hasn't even happened?

What can you say about someone
who talks about things
as if the same one has seen it ended?

I can say nothing about that someone,
yes I have no words;
for I stand in awe of that someone
who did those things before.

Am I Ready to Give You Away?

Sometimes, we think that we should leave the people we are closely attached to, romantically, brotherly/sisterly, or in whatever form of bond. It usually happens when we see and feel that things no longer work the way they do before, and when things don't turn out good.

It becomes difficult to stay in exactly the same situation with a person you know. There must be progression. Signs like wavering of relationships and bond only indicate progression. We cannot stay forever in our old ways. We must learn how to handle the new things and the changes in others. It doesn't mean that we should break away from the people we love. We should just progress with them.

Well, in the mean time, while you're pondering the point above, let me share a little something more for you to ponder on. Let's just say, "what if...". Let's imagine... ;)

Am I Ready To Give You Away?

Am I ready to give you away
To some place farther
Where you can surely stay
And where you'll feel better?

Is it worth the cost
To put you where you belong
Is it for the better cause
To just leave you along?

Tonight I ask myself again
Not sure what I should do
Am I ready to carry on the pain
My greatest dream, my you?

Written on February 7/8, 2008, midnight.

Hurt

I'm hurt and I can't move
This ache I could not remove
This feeling in my chest
It's piercing my heart endlessly
Without blood but I'm dying slowly

It makes me weak if I think
Of what you've done to me
It makes my heart beat fast
I couldn't catch my breath
Even if I breathe carefully

I'm probably losing conrol of my sanity
Who's even there to catch me in my misery
Right now I just want to catch a deep breath
That it would feel okay
And even for a second forget all the pain

The memories, they get harder
Cemented on the walls of your brain
They won't break and soon
They'd just turn into gold
Like fear you have in a nightmare

Find me somebody who could save me
Find me somebody who could cover me with love
Bind the wounds of may shattered heart
Put it all together and make me new
Give me a new name so that I wont remember

This is a hard choice
All just points into losing
I hide back to the deep of not knowing
But I ask who's that bright light
Staying with me even when I was in the dark