Waiting

As I sit, I think of you
Fearing things I know ain't true
Wond'ring where you might be right now
Wishing you'd be here already somehow

I try to supress this feeling inside
I believe the good things, the doubts I hide
Waiting for the doors behind to slide
Till you're here just by my side

It's been hours and ages that I sit
You seem to be not able to ever make it
But patiently, again, I put my trust
I hold onto your words, I'll try to last

I knew before what I entered into
When I let my heart [to] be closer to you
I will not blame you for whatever you [might've] done
The day again's approaching, it shows the sun

I'd forgive and I'll forget your frailty
A thousand more than the infinity
If that's not enough, I'd give more
Until you'd look me and now adore

If though to you my heart I give
And you hold back and me you leave
It's just a stage to prove [to] you back
Of what real love is all about

Writer's notes: This is about forgiveness. People [that we love] may hurt us, but that's what love is all about. (To think that I'm actually saying this, haha, I should really learn this! :p) Real love forgives and is unconditional. It asks nothing in return. Though, the right response is gratefulness, love is still giving. Hmmm... :) hehehe

BTW, this is actually a variation of another one that I wrote entitled 'Traffic'. Hehe...I wrote it at the same time with a difference in a few minutes lang hehe. :) Kaso ito, about the person failing you, and you forgive, and then comes reality. Yung isa naman, it's comedic. In the end, paranoia lang pala, kelangan lang pala ng konting trust and there you have it. Patience pays. Pero beware of false patience. Baka sometimes we are patiently waiting for what we know isn't for us (or we aren't aware yet). Hehe. :) Wahahaha, am back to bloggin! :p bleh!!! Wahehehehe

Full of Anger

What would happen if we fill ourselves
Of this hatred, retribution, non-sense?
When we are full of anger, what's next?
Does it rescue us from these dark nests?

Doesn't it reflect inside us?
Showing how we hate us?
From this deep-seated false emotion
When will we start to wake up?

Let us begin to love ourselves
And accept our failures
Empty our hearts so full of anger
Start to listen, stop to remember

Move on from our pasts
And see the light of today, tomorrow
See the rays of new hope
Fill our eyes with real colors

It feels way better
When you stop seeing all black
Try to hear this and discover
When you remove this stumbling block

Do yourself a favor

I'll do you a favor, I'm gonna forget what you've said, and what you might be planning to do.
I'll just act like nothing happened. I usually don't just let it pass and think of it over and over again and begin to hate myself. I don't know, this time's different. I forgot them already, those things that you've told me. I'm not fuzzing too much about it anymore compared to old times that I panic and cry. What I've told you might be enough, so it's okay now...

Yeah, you heard right. Come do yourself a favor. Learn also to forgive yourself. It's not who you are, it's just what you've done. Do it 'cause I already have. We can play again, we can enjoy again this time. You don't need to be afraid anymore. I've told you a thousand times a thousand. Your ear still doesn't itch, it's still hiding inside. I know you can hear me. It's finished if you ask me. It's done already. You can act like a new man, forget everyone. Today's a new day, wake up and come on play...

Rescue Mission

I cannot go in life astray
I cannot change this way I'm in
It's the same thing everyday
Your name is what it says I hear

The things that I feel inside
I know that I can never hide
No matter how I hard I dare ever try
It's just there, it wouldn't lie

I cannot conceal
These wounds, they just won't heal
Until you're here for real
And you from time I steal

It won't heal til you're there
It won't do til I've shooed away the scare
Til your last drop of tears I've spared
And I've replaced it with a smile

This is one thought, this will never change
I have one mission, never let your life exchange
A mistake is enough, I can forgive you now
You won't need to ask, It's all done

I'll never change what I say
I'll tell you everyday
I'll come there even if you're far away
I'll cross the shore with my feet bare

I won't swim, I will walk on water
No matter how you hide, I see through
The darkest cave I'll go into
Only just to find you

Come back here in my arms
A hug that you long you'll find
A warmth you've missed your whole life
It missed you too all the time

Let's walk together, do not be afraid
My mood's changing 'cause I know now you're here
I hope everyday, and I know it's true
I don't just believe, I know and I see you

I see visions, and I know again
I am informed though it is not yet
I know that you're there safe
I am secured that you now can sleep

Just know that I won't change
I won't hold back the words I've let
I'll wait, I'll know the thought you'll get
Til you remember your fears not ever...

Odd forgiveness

I'm a poet, I don't write. Instead, I just cry.
I'm an idiot, I don't think. Instead, I forgive.
I'm a fool, I am wise. I just try to give in to the lies.
Well, it's not the point anyway.
I love for who you are, not what you've done.
That's the way I've been loved anyway, that's all the reason
Reason that I do this crazy madness you may call it.

Every night I weep inside, 'cause in the day I get hurt.
Every night I heal, 'cause tomorrow I forgive again.
Every night I think to dream, to give me a dream to hope on.
Every night I pray to God, to build up what I've prayed for.

Do not be a fool, be wise. Do not be likewise.
Follow not my example, mine's enough.
Live a life, live life now.
Yet tomorrow, I'll still wait for you to do.
If you won't do it, I'm gonna be there for you.

The Same words

I'm feeling down, I feel the love for you
I'm feeling lonely, I feel I need you
I'm feeling crazy, I badly want you
What can I do, do about you?

I am empty, and I long for you
I am confused, and I think of you
I am weak, and I hope for you
I am angry, and I forgive you

This feeling inside me confuses me
This feeling inside me fools me
This feeling inside me challenges me
This feeling inside me set me free

Everyday I forgive you
Everyday I show you grace
Everyday I give love
As it has been given me freely