First, I feel really inspired. I thank the Lord, I know that there are no accidents in Him, for making me have kuya Luis as my brother. You really don't put a lot of thought in the reason why you were born siblings with your brothers or sisters. But, this time, I just find it wonderful that I see one of the reasons why the Lord has given me my brother, kuya Luis. :)
After visiting Rainchem earlier, I've discovered more things about my kuya. I only knew about his achievements, recognitions, and awards (not sure) from Rainchem and in his job. I sometimes hear him telling my mom about what he's done for Rainchem, the hardwork that he's put in it, and how glad he is that he's contributed to the company. His company has grown during his stay in it. There would be no harm to believe that he had significant contributions to its growth -- with all the good reports, recognitions, and all. But, all I knew was from reports and stories alone. I never really knew exactly what he did for him to say he did something good in his job. But, I believed in what he said because it was all believable, and there were even some tangible evidences like plaques of appreciation. I just didn't see for myself.
While waiting for Rainchem's production manager or other officers to come back for the interview (they had a meeting), I heard my groupmates talk about how they think Rainchem has been earning a lot lately. Probably they noticed a lot of changes. For one, Shane thinks that the owner of Rainchem is a very wise person, probably attributing it to his dad since it is his point of contact where he can relate things between Rainchem and their company. I think that he has this belief that there are super people that have all the qualities he likes -- decisive, good planning skills, innovative, visionary -- and he attributes those skills as the recipe for success. That may be his only explanation to why Rainchem is experiencing success in their sales this year.
I would try to defend by saying that "my brother told me that he did a lot for Rainchem, and I believe that he deserves credit for it". But, that's not that credible -- given his 'knowledge' and 'experience' with business, I might just be wrong and he might just be right. So, I could not convince him, and insisting that my brother contributed to Rainchem's success was just futile.
I remember before that we tried talking to each other about how my brother told me that their boss did a wrong decision, that is why they experienced high sales, but very low profits. It had something to do with wrong decisions that their boss did, while my brother contested to that. But anyway, that was past. However, Shane insisted that bosses never commit mistakes. Again, I can only explain this by thinking that he was only defending the 'boss' image as infallible, always ready to get up and stand back on one's feet no matter what the situation. I don't know but, this may have something to do with his John Robert Powers (JRP) sessions -- that everything situation can be fixed. I also think that by admitting it, that 'boss' image would be imperfect, also reflecting his idea of his father. However, it is not really the point.
Justin Go, on the other hand, would also suggest that it was because Rainchem was able to hire an old, expert Sales lady who was able to close a deal with PGE, one of Rainchem's biggest clients.
All of these information only came from sir Rai's explanation of how Rainchem possibly succeeded. It was him trying to rationalize the boost in sales and the overall company growth. I cannot blame him because he never got to work with my brother -- or at least my brother told me that he had just applied a week or two before he quit work.
I really couldn't defend my brother, because I wasn't confident enough that I could defend my claim that he really had something to do with Rainchem's growth. I'm not saying it's all because of him. I'm saying that he also deserves credit (that I believe Rainchem gave and has already given to him), also from the people that do not claim or, in their terms, 'buy' it.
Ma'am Shiela asked me about my brother and how he was -- all in a very sweet manner. In her eyes I saw the genuine friendliness of her question. It wasn't the usual "how's your brother" just to relate something to me, but I believe it was more of 'I'm asking this because I really wanna know -- we miss him and he's done a lot for us'. I know that my brother had a deep relationship with everyone in the company. Everyone must have liked him for what he did, and he must have given it back to them. I know that they were like one family in the company, based on my brother's stories. They treated each other very kindly, and they were comfortable with each other. I guess one reason would probably be because of the kind and friendly nature of my brother. They can all attest to that! :)
From Ma'am Shiela's question, I remembered one status message of kuya on his Facebook account. He said about being lonely, and I got affected. He's a very kind and caring brother. He would send me my allowance for the month. He's very generous and kind -- I used to think otherwise, that he was only like that to other people and his other friends. Now I stand corrected.
This evening, he gave ma Personal Message (PM) on Y!M. With that thought of him in mind, I replied right away. Whatever the favor he would be asking me, it would be the least I can do for him for being a really blessed person. Then, all he asked was that he get to talk to mom and dad. Before, that disrupting task of having to go upstairs and do a video-call with him just so that he can get to talk to mom and the others was very annoying -- but manageable. He could just chat directly to my mom, and it would confuse me to think of any reason why he'd have to chat with me just to talk to my mom. My mom's got her own laptop and knows how to chat well enough. But, now, I understand the value of lending my time and my computer to help him. :)
How I wish I could be like him -- and I was thinking that I could in my own time when I graduate. I mean, I was already doing some things that can make my parents proud of me like my previous honors, stories of success, and so on. I have shared them to my brother too. But, am I really looked at by other people as comparable or even greater than my brother? Do I give justice to the good image that my brother left on Rainchem? Or, do they see me as this little brother who sounds and looks exactly, carbon copy, like him but acts quite differently? I asked those questions tonight.
I was revitalized.
I feel like performing better again. I have no reason to have no confidence in myself anymore. I can offer myself again for service to others, with no regrets, with no hangups, with no limitations but God's will. I feel really energized and strengthened! I'm gonna take this term by storm!
These questions challenged me to live at par with my brother's legacy. I don't wanna live at my brother's shadow and just rest on the laurels believing that it just runs through the blood, and that it'll come out no matter what. What I've learned is you have to have purpose, good reason, and courage to succeed and leave a good mark in others. I forgot that. You have to use the skills and gifts that God gave you. Gifts and skills that aren't used for the purpose they were meant for are a waste.
I feel renewed,
This stands as a firm challenge for me to do great in everything I do. I should do this always. I thank the Lord for reminding me of His word. This is what I just needed. He stays true to His promises, particularly when He said that His Holy Spirit in me will make me remember the things that I should remember. And, in a perfect time of unveiling! It's really perfect because I appreciate all of them, it was very timely, and I understand all the reasons as they connect freely with each other.
and I feel blessed with all the new things happening right now. :)
I am just very thankful that there are a lot of new things that the Lord is giving to me, my family, and my friends right now. Let me list them:
- New house soon to be finished!
- Shuane and the Valledor family's new life in Canada
- A new and better vision in life
Right now, I'm praying for all my requirements in school, and my other needs. But, what I pray for the most is that the Lord reveal His will to me, and may it be done in my life. What use is your life is you do not meet its purpose? I want to know His will and fulfill it. I know that it is only good. I do not want to take the wrong roads of my life anymore. I don't want to be easily blinded by my wants and end up not having them, being bitter, and blaming the Lord for 'confusing' me if it was really His will or not. Instead, I'd rather stop, stay, and listen to His voice, so that I know for sure what He wants in my life -- and for me to take that path. This is the first time, I think, that the Lord's prayer, which says, "Your will be done" started to make sense to me. I can now pray it with my whole heart, with a clear meaning in my life.
I'm glad to end this night with something this good. I can try to write about a lot of interesting and intellectual stuff, but nothing beats something that feeds the heart, the soul, and the spirit. :)
Thank you very much, Lord! :)
I know for sure that this post will only do good to its readers who are under the Lord's influence. :)