Facebook is pure distraction right now!

Yes, that! Facebook is pure distraction right now!

The Obvious

I am just stating the obvious. I have a lot of things in my mind right now. But, despite that, there is that desperate attempt from me to still organize my thoughts and not get caught up in it.

Oh, 'Empire State of Mind' by Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys be cool, and also 'United State of Pop 2009 (Blame it on the pop)' by DJ Earworm too!

This is just so random. I'm not gonna stop talking (and in this case, writing, blogging) 'til I find answers, 'til I see progress, 'til I see good... And I hope to see good.

"Hello. How May I Help You?"

I care for you, and I want to help you. Somehow, I don't want to be just one clip of the film of your life. I might just be somebody insignificant to you. I can try to force myself into your life, but at the end of the day, if I really am not, I'll be just an intermission.

I want do something, but I just don't know what it is that I can do. I know that I should help myself first too before I can help others such as you, but I feel like I don't need to do that because I can manage on my own. Maybe that's the same situation with you, you can handle your own well without my help.

But, from this view, I can see clearly that you are in need of help... Who will be your help? I pray, then, that you find that solution... It does not need to be me, for what's important is that there is help... I just hope that this one, out of a thousand that I utter, may be heard...

Promises

I just want to remind myself of the following promises that I have made. At least if I get to fulfill even some of them, the realistically attainable ones, I might feel satisfied.

So, here goes the list:

- I'll stop being late in my subjects. To do that, I'll ask for overnights @ my classmate's house.

- I'll outperform myself in my STRAMGT course. I've been slacking off too much, and time to prove and deliver the promises and words that I have been saying. No more thank you's, sorries, and such.

- I'll keep my blog alive.

- I'll soon redesign my blogs and websites.

Beautiful People

The world is full of wonderful people -- wonderful people with different stories to tell; wonderful people with different perspectives and situations in life.

Sometimes, even these people who are beautiful in their own respective ways, because of all the crap in life, cannot see the beauty in them.

I want it be a mission in my life to help people see how they were magnificently created by God.

Trade-Offs...

There will be trade-offs when you choose to put aside your duties and responsibilities. Expect that people may and will get mad at you because you simply are just doing something wrong. But, it is perfectly normal. You'll have to accept and face the fact that you are not doing things right, and that you shouldn't do something wrong to cover up your previous mistakes.

Face the consequences, and most of the time, man is just too merciful and understanding that we don't get what we actually deserve -- punishment. I must stress out that it is very important for us to finally stop adding to the wrongs that we do because we think it is the way out. NO. It will help us save face for only a little while. But, courage, by facing your mistakes and admitting them with humility, you might actually be doing yourself a favor and erase your past record of wrongs.

Alas. Face the trade-offs of your wrong actions so that you can set it right once and for all.

I Miss My Mac :'(

I miss my Mac... I think I left my productivity with it. :'(

A Mac will always be a Mac = Best.

Tired of Making Excuses

I'm tired of making excuses... Cos no matter what reasons I have, the fact will remain that I wasn't able to fulfill my obligations. Period.

Pangako lang?

Hanggang pangako na lang ba ako?

Wars Yesterday and Today

Before, nations were the ones at war. Now, the war is between man and nature.

Last Day of Voting (Friday, July 9, 2010): Achiever Scholar Program - College Level

Guys, especially to those who wish to support me. Tomorrow yung last day of voting for the Achiever Scholar Program, til 12nn. I do not have any roving cans nor campaign managers, but I believe that your genuine support will be my fuel. Ako lang talaga ang lumalapit personally sa mga kakilala ko, and I ask them to vote by the heart. Still, salamat sa inyo. Text me to meet me if you want to vote, wala na kasing booth. :)

Please keep the votes coming, cos I think I only garner 1/4 of what my 3 greatest (voting) opponents have. I really need your support dahil 20% din ito. They get thousands of pesos a day while I only gather barely a hundred to two hundred. They have big givers (100, 200, 300, 500, 1000 increments/votes), but I don't think it's the quantity. Just as the Lord looks at the heart and not the outward deeds -- like the Rich Man and the Poor Widow giving their offering, yet the Poor widow gave more in essence. That is my only fallback whenever the votes status bring me down.

Still, thanks to those who believe in me and give good amounts. Even a single vote counts and I appreciate it. But big thanks to those with the conviction to give amounts like 50 or 100 and such.

If you wish to ask me my reason why I joined the Achiever Scholar Program, please do so. I try to keep it to myself and some close friends as much as possible because it is a very personal matter to me. Kaya, this program is a very big thing for me.

God bless us and may His pure will be done. :)

The Reason Why I Joined the Achiever Scholar Program. :)

The Reason Why I Joined the Achiever Scholar Program. :)

Note: this is a long read. But please bear with me. The main points are at the last lines, although they are scattered all throughout this note (beginning, middle, etc.). My parents were from UP. My 3 kuyas were from UP. I wanted to be like them, a scholar. But during late elementary and high school, my dad lost his job. He was jobless for 2 years. It affected my schooling. I couldn't take exams because I couldn't pay any tuition. The school year ended with me not being able to take the exam. I was badly affected by our financial situation. I didn't perform well in school. However, my peers and professors always believed that I was a bright student, that I can perform. Only that I had a bad attitude, which I believe was the effect of my financial problems. I lost confidence in myself because we didn't have enough finances to support my academic endeavors. We had just enough for daily expenses like food and etc., but an excess was rare. I am a 7th of 8 children. So, not only was it a difficult thing that my dad lost his job. It was also difficult because he was supporting 8 children. Wala pang graduates that time. Nahihirapan na din mga kapatid ko who were in college. As said earlier, I wanted to be a scholar, yes. It was an aim -- I wanted to follow the good footsteps and example of my parents and my elder brothers. But due probably to our financial situation, I didn't have good high school records. I failed the UP exam (the only school I applied for) even though I had high exam results (grades won't be mentioned). I tried to apply for reconsideration because the results were considerably high. However, they couldn't because I applied for quota courses. I again tried for reconsideration at UPLB. I almost got in, but at the last part of the application/reconsideration process, I got rejected because I didn't apply for UPLB. It was the first lesson of the Lord to me. My mom insisted I apply for UPLB, but when the rain ruined my first application form, I filled up a new one, and changed my campus choice to UPM instead. Lesson: listen to your parents. I was rush-enrolled to DLSU-D. The start of my being a Lasallian. All the while I intended to transfer to a UP unit, specifically UPM, after a year. I had good school performance, the top in my BS-IT batch, all sections/blocks included. Guidance councilor has the records to prove so. I felt confident that my application would be a breeze. 1st year ended, and I convinced my parents that I'll apply for UPM. They insisted that I go DLSU-Manila. I didn't feel it because I am only a simple person. I don't know a thing about other universities, altough I'm starting to like Lasalle. And, I'm not an elitist, which I thought of Lasalistas. Not english-speaking, etc. It was too prestigious and intimidating. UPM didn't process my application. They didn't consider my TRED subjects as academic courses, and there was a misinterpretation. They informed me late and reconsideration was a mess because the slots for BS-Computer Science were gone. They will only accept incoming 2nd year students. I wasn't meant for UP at all. I got back to DLSU-D. After a more successful 2nd year (participated in a limited-slots, by-invitation leadership potential LTS, run for College President under an independent/non-popular political party, saw more what it is to be a Lasallian), I applied for DLSU. My reason for applying for DLSU was because I wanted to achieve something in my college life. I wanted to get the most out of my education. And it was the time that I was feeling more confident because the Lord was slowly and steadily blessing and providing for my needs. But, we aren't really rich. We just had good enough. My youngest brother (next to me) just graduated high school, and he was going to UST. I realized that I was the only one left in the province to study (Cavite), and I think I deserve a level-up (study in Manila) for my good academic performance. I was afraid I won't get accepted by DLSU because of my past experiences. But, when I learned how to give it all to the Lord, and trust in Him no matter what -- when I learned how to humble myself and not focus too much on my own plans, but to trust in the Lord's purpose -- I passed. :) My arrival here at DLSU, for me, was the start and go signal for me from the Lord. It was the start of my quest to achieve and attain my goals -- success. One of the goals I wanted to achieve was to be part of the Achiever Scholar Program. During my first year, I saw an advertisement about it, but I still wasn't eligible for it. I waited til I was. That was the first time spark I had that made me desire to apply for the program. It was a seed sown in my heart. Last year, 1st term, I went on LOA. I met an accident. It was an important term because SAN-DES (an important pre-requisite major course) was offered that time. I missed it and got delayed. But, I believed that the Lord has a plan for me, so I accepted that fact. Last year, 2nd term, I got good grades again. The rest I had from the LOA made me see who I was again. The Lord refreshed me about His plans for me. I had good success again all thanks to the Lord's grace. Last term, (3rd term) I was eligible for the Achiever Scholar Program. It was my chance. I wanted to join, and my friends were coaxing me to do so. But, nobody nominated for me, and I missed the chance. Last term was my only chance to graduate on time again and get back on track. But, to do that, I needed to enroll 4 major subjects all at the same time. I thought that it was my last chance to be qualified for the Achiever Scholar Program because it was impossible to get a good grade after the term. Even the honor students of my batch/course told me the same thing -- that I shouldn't take those subjects all at the same time. They strongly disapproved of my decisions. However, some of my friends encouraged my by saying that I can do it. I sided with them. A miracle, however, happened after that term. The Lord showed me that He can do the impossible. I got good grades in my last term. It was the term that I got the highest number of units earned. I also survived a course that I thought I'll fail. With God's grace, I got a 2.0 in a very difficult course that got a lot of students failing. It qualified me for a DL. For me, that term was one of my greatest academic achievements! I joined a lot of organizations the moment I stepped into the grounds of DLSU-Manila. I thought that it's just what I should to in order to reach my goals. But, I came to a point that I had to choose what I really want in life. I should look for what the Lord wants for me, and what I'm made for -- not just anything that I see and I know I can do. That for me was God's sign that He can do the impossible. It was also His go signal for me to apply for the Achiever Scholar Program. Now, I'm facing new challenges again, but this is just to prove that God has His ways that I do not know, but they for sure are for the good. Actually, by faith, He makes known to me what He is about to do. :) Now today and the rest of history is yet to be written. Although I know they already have been inked in His book -- and all of it is good. :)

PS

Those who supported me deserve to know. I thank all of you. Bukas na po ang interview and deliberation. The Lord bless us! :)

Minsan nakakahiya mag-share ng something about you because di mo naman alam how other people will take it, but this was a leap of faith. I think you gusy deserve to know a part of me, since a lot of you supported me. Salamat sa inyo! :D

My Opinion On Agra's Term (Ampatuan)

Sometimes, we get tangled up in something so big and so chaotic and powerful that we lose control (of our actions) because of the things that are happening. Maybe, just maybe, that's what happened to Agra. He was blatantly used by 'this system' that he had no other choice but to 'go wherever the wind blows'. He can only look forward. He might have been just a chess piece in the whole game. Dunno. It might also be really difficult for us if we were in his situation. He chose to be indifferent so he can escape the system unharmed by the system. Things in the Secretary's seat might be way more complicated than just serving justice then you're okay. Just IMO.

I'll Try To Be Stronger.

"I'll try to be stronger. Maybe we can enjoy each other's company more that way. :)"

Why Do I Like You?

Right now I am asking myself why I like you. It's just that I want to check if my feelings for you are still reasonable, and that I am not just attracted to you skin deep. So, why do I really like you?

You are simple.

The first time I saw you, I felt intimidated. You, to me, were really beautiful. You dressed wonderfully, you definitely can present yourself well. I thought that I was your stark contrast. However, after a few revelations about your family background; after some short words from your mouth that I got from eavesdropping (yes, I did that out of interest, hehe), I found out that you were actually a very simple person, that you won't look down on people that others might look down to. And, what impresses me most is that, you can do that despite your affluent disposition.

You are sweet.

I see how sweet you are to your siblings (you just don't know how 'observing' I can get whenever I get the chance to be around you-even when you think I am not looking, that is the time that I try the hardest to observe just to get more information about you, hehehe. I just don't want to blow my cover up too early, nor spoil the surprise). I have never been that consistently sweet to my siblings, and I am just awed at how you can do that all the time. I just want myself to be as sweet as that. And, maybe if we get closer, you can share that attribute to me.

You are sunny.

Although I do not know you that well (mainly because I am too shy to get to know you, and I am the type of person that would rather be mysterious, and break everything down in the end to create a big surprise ala 'save the best for last'), I feel comfortable when I'm around you. Yes, I do, even if I just stay silent. Even if I only get to speak a short while with you. Even if I only hear your giggles from my view when you're seated afar. And, it's actually quite funny because amidst that comfort, I feel uneasy when I'm around you--a feeling I can't explain nor describe. I sometimes become really spontaneous, or become too clumsy.

What other reasons do I have to like you? Maybe that's it, or maybe there's still more hiding from my sight. Maybe you are just a code to decipher like that of a grand jigsaw puzzle that once I finish, I'll appreciate my efforts the most.

:)

School Tormentors

1) obnoxious groupmates

2) boring professors

3) impossible subjects

4) long breaks!, and

5) etc! :p

PS

I like the 5th one best!

To my Multiply page. :'(

Ohmygash, Multiply! What have I done? I have left you desolate! I must love you! :'(

Me Pissed Off sa mga Admin ng LP (Liberal Party) FB (Facebook) Pages + My Note to Noynoy (if he becomes President)

I can't help but generalize that all LP (or Noynoy) related FB Pages' admins are just plain crazy and baseless. Nakakakulo ng dugo! You're just there having good and constructive conversation with open-minded people, and then this administrator, that I cannot ever understand bans me with no definite reason at all (is it their job?

Are they asked by higher close-minded authorities to do this? Or should we blame them authorities for recruiting such close-minded FB Page administrators?) Sinisira nila ang good conversation, ang good exchange of ideas from 2 sides of the coin. Instead of being more open to different ideas (those that don't even go against the Page), they're doing something na sobrang nakaka-piss off.

Parang onti na lang and maniniwala na akong walang freedom of speech dito sa Pilipinas. Nakakaasar. Dahil may mga taong pipigilan kang mag-salita talaga maski tama ka at walang ginagawang masama. Beware of the people who do these things.

Argh. I really hate groups like that. May mga nakakausap ka nang mga matitino. Lagi na lang kapag LP na Fanpage, kapag nagbanggit ka ng hindi sila sang-ayon, particulary yung RH bill, edi ibblock ka na. Mas open minded pa yung mga members nila makipag-usap kumpara sa kanila.

Sinabi ko lang na I didn't know Risa was fighting for the RH bill, and I was against it. I said my opinion about Risa, pero ended up saying that maski against RH bill ako, I still might support her (which I will do come elections day). Pero, I checked kanina sa FB Wall ko yung Risa Hontiveros FB Page, I can't even leave a comment. I wondered why ako na-block. Ang naalala ko lang naman na comment ko is yung sa RH bill. SUPER CLOSE MINDED.

Hinanap ko yung RH bill na issue, ni yung mga members dun matino reply sa matino kong mga tanong. Tapos yung estupidong admin, dinelete lahat ng posts ko dun and blocked na ako. It perfectly reminds me of my Noynoy FB Page experience na pinagtanggol ko lang si Villar sa mud-slinging nila (and sobrang tino ng pagkakatanggol ko, sabi ko lang wag nating gawin sa iba ang ayaw nating gawin sa atin, and as Noynoy's supporters, we should know better because we reflect what kind of Noynoy supporters we are, and hence the name of Noynoy as a candidate).

Anong ginawa nila sa akin after that concerned reply? Binlock, nireplyan with harassing comments. Parang sissy pa nga yung admin cos he was saying na bakit hindi na ako nagrereply, isang oras na daw... malamang, binlock mo ko. Duwag ka? What a demonstration of abuse of power. Dapat mas responsable sila.

Eto ba ang pamunuan ni Noynoy? Nako, kung ganito, edi maghahanda na akong magtiis. Dahil maski tama ka at maganda ang ginagawa mo, di ka pwedeng gumalaw.

Now, back to Risa Hontiveros. Nagtataka lang ako. Pareho silang under LP. Tapos parehong experience ang dinanas ko. Dalawang beses pa. Mas mild ng lang tong kay Risa Hontiveros... Pero, golly. Naman! I-block ba naman ako dahil lang sa hindi ako Pro-RH? WOW men!!!

I've taken screenshots of the original post, and I'm posting a link of that issue. Kaasar lang sobra.

Noynoy, kung manalo ka man, I know you deserve my respect. I used to support you. I just got this feeling that you'll win, but I'll still vote for who I think should best rule our country given the Philippine's situation. Kaasar ang elections, andaming paninira, andaming mud-slinging. Andaming tulungan. May imbalance of power. Pati media nagagamit sa paninira ng tao. May kinkilingan, ika-nga. Nakakaasar na. Pero, back to what I was saying, Noynoy, or Mr. President Aquino (if you become one), I'll respect you. Hindi madaling maging presidente. Pero, ang panalangin ko lang para sa iyo ay magkaroon ka (o kung mayroon man mas mabuti) ng kakayahan at lakas na ma-prove wrong yung mga tao sa mga nakikita nilang mali sa iyo. Hindi naman ito impossible. After all, para sa mga Pilipino din ito.

And, huwag ka lang papagamit sa mga masasamang tao. Laging magtiwala at tumayo sa pananampalataya at sa Diyos. :)

God bless the Philippines! The elections is quite scary, di mo alam mangyayari! Whew!

Achievements of #42 Papin Imelda for Senator

Reposter's notes:

I didn't expect that she's got these credentials. Well, this is an interesting one. :)

Start:

Vote #42 Papin Imelda for Senator

- First Female Elected and Re-elected Vice Governor of Camarines Sur (1998-2004)
- Most Outstanding Vice Governor in the Philippines (1999)
- First Vice Governor that brought Mobile Dental Clinic to the Philippines from Queensland, Australia
- Brought Mobile Medical Van ( Mini Hospital w/ Bed) through her own efforts
- Scholarship Grants to more than 1,000 students
- Championed Women's Rights and Concerns
- Helped and Protected Abused OFWs
- Free Dialysis Treatment for the Poor
- Supplemental Milk-Feeding Program for more than 3000,000 Malnourished Children
- Construction of School Buildings in every Municipality
- Building of Integrated People's Centers in every Municipality for the usage of the youth, senior citizens and the women sector
- Protector of the Oppressed and Disadvantaged
- Promoted Cultural and Artistic Activities
- Spearheaded Environmental Awareness and Ecological Preservation Projects
- Legal Assistance to Prisoners
- Sagip Buhay Program (Support for Typhoon and Volcanic Eruption Victims)
- Disaster Relief Programs
- Only Filipino who hosted a telethon show in America for the purpose of raising funds for Mt. Pinatubo Victims through the auspices of the International Red Cross
- Held First Gay Olympics to recognize the contribution of the gay Community in Nation Building
- Assisted the Elderly Citizens and the Disabled
- Peace Mediator and Conflict Resolver

RECENT AWARDS

The United States Government recognized her exemplary talent as Philippine Ambassadress of Goodwill and Support to the Filipino-American Communities through the following awards:

Honorable Harry Reid Senatorial Certificate of Commemoration
Honorable John Ensign Senatorial Certificate of Commemoration
Honorable Shelley Berkley Congressional Recognition
Governor Jim Gibbons Certificate of Recognition

The 9 Immediate Programs of the Imelda Papin Agenda Towards Peace, Progress and Prosperity

1. Declaration of "National Unity and Reconciliation Day"

2. Provide a copy of the Constitution of the Republic of the Philippines to every Filipino Family as part of People Empowerment and Participation to know their basic Rights and Privileges & establishment of I.A.P Centers (Information Assistance for the People).

3. Enact a Rescue Bill as an Immediate Response to Poverty and Hunger through "One (1) Employment for Every Family" with a combined efforts of the Government and Private Sector.

4. Declare the "Philippines as the "Eco-Tourist Destination in Asia" and as the "Quality Entertainment of Asia".

5. Establishment of State Colleges, Vocational Training Schools in every Municipality and Availment of the Educational Loans payable within 5-10 years upon Employment.

6. Immediate Assistance Program (IAP) to OFW's by putting "Help Desks" in every Municipality.

7. Additional Hospital Benefits to Senior Citizens at the age of 60 an additional of 20,000 at age of 70 an additional of 30,000 and at the age of 80 an additional of 50,000.

8. Creation of national Women Cooperative with or without Collateral for their Self-Reliance and Empowerment.

9. Establishment of Government Hospital with complete Facilities in every Municipality.

Transparency is the name of the game.
Kung walang transparency mag iisip magnakaw ang mga nasa posisyon sa gitna ng paghihirap ng Pilipinas at ng mga mamamayan nito.
Free access to public documents, ensures transparency in the government.
Dapat itong masabatas kung talagang seryoso ang gobyerno na puksain ang corruption. Sino bang napuperwisyo kundi tayong nagbabayad ng buwis.....Ok lang magbayad ng buwis basta nakikita natin na umuunlad ang bansang pilipinas. (Vote #42 Papin Imelda for Senator)

LOVE STORY PICKED UP FROM THE NET.

~~ LOVE STORY~~ ♥♥ A girl asked a guy if he
thought she was pretty and he said no. She asked him if he would want to
be with her forever and he said no. She then asked him if she were to
leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face....

the boy... grabbed her arm and said... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... ♥♥ ~~THE END~~ ♥♥