Di ako maka-post :(

Sobrang busy, sobrang tired, sobrang pre-occupied na least priority na dapat ang Computer stuff. Hay, di makapag-blog, di barely makapag-check ng emails and makapag-friendster 'gala' which is part of my routines while online. Hay talaga un! Kasi right now pagod nako at puputulin ko na kagad tong blog entry na'to. Bbye huhuhu -- still have to scan one map :'(

Emergency Holler

I see discomfort from your eyes
Yet you show us that you smile
I can't help but ask you why
You cover up and lie

I trust in who you are
Forget things you might do
I'd patch up all your scars
I'd be there and heal you

When will you run for cover
And begin to pour it out
Tell me your concerns and anger
I'm here to help you start

You relied on what you thought solution
You were trying to conceal
Your silence seemed the best resort
But the wounds still wouldn't heal

But it all seems invisible
Your whole being like a mystery
You're too frail and gullible
Don't think you're enough free

The more you think you'd handle
Darkness becomes your master
You're sunk low in this puddle
And you're devoured by this monster

When you're so through and tired
Like in an emergency holler
May there be a hand out
So that life wouldn't be unfair

Writer's notes: Sana ma-solve na yung problema 'mo'. Pero how? Sana lang when we're all tired of this maze, this confusion, may way out when we give up...I'm beginning to get tired...ilang oras ko na to ginagawa...di ko ma-express...mixed emotions kasi eh, and divided attention...minsan, darkness becomes our master, when it should be a monster. Sometimes we dwell too much in darkness kasi it's comfortable and there seems no way out. It makes you tired pero sometimes we enjoy it -- un ang mahirap. Mabuti na ring mapagod tayo para in the end, we'd give up -- to Him...we'd give up fighting...we're done and through of doing it all by ourselves...we're done waiting for an opportunity that wouldn't really come...cos when we give it up, only then will the opportunities open...

Attention: A Reminder

I've redone some of my posts. I've included a side-note and reflection about the poem, sharing my insights about it.

The original link is -- http://matcieou7th.blogspot.com/

Check niyo na lang hehe ;)

"I'm back" (Matthew version :p)

Hindi lang si McArthur ang may line na ganun! It's not original and claimable by and individual to 'invent' that line anyway. :)

In my previous post, I said that something's stopping me. I said that I'd be away muna...now, am officially back in business (as usual) wuhahaha! :) Hehe...ayun sulat2 ulit! Wahehehe...lapit na pasko, sarap gumala and mag-treat ng ibang tao. :) makes ur heart leap!

God bless everyone!

Traffic

It's been hours and time is ticking
You're still not here and I'm still waiting
All this time I watch stars shooting
No hint of you, not even a warning

I stare with intent over my phone
Waiting here for a ring, a tone
I've been long sitting here all alone
Just enough to turn me into stone

I ask God for any sign
I know that I'm out of the lign
Fuzzing too much about your hands in mine
The time before that were so fine

This sure makes me so very lonely
But then I hear you suddenly call me
My gray world now begins to leave my sanity
Absconding and making me the most happy

It's been traffic, so you tell me
I've forgotten the long wait that has consumed me
You're worth the time that I felt empty
Now you're here by my side, so lucky me Ü

Writer's notes: Wahaha, di ako makatulog, it's 3:38 AM na when I wrote this one. Wala lang, gutom pa ko this time and 7:30 AM - 7:00 pa class ko sa following day, what the life? Hehehe...ang mushy no? Hehehe. Ü

Away from Distraction

If we let [our] emotions rule us
When we let temptation mesmerize
If we believe the things that fool us
We are drawn to compromise

When will you stop and realize
That things here won't complete us
When will we stop to patronize
Things here that distract us

We miss out the importance
Of things around our beings (--means existence)
All because of ignorance
We're swayed from our real purpose

Let's keep ourselves collected
And away from [our] distractions
Let's cool up and believe that
We're able to resist them

Let's not allow ourselves to be
Overwhelmed by our obstructions
Let's open our eyes and see
Beauty and affection

Writer's notes: I wrote this kasi, I've reflected a lot about distractions in this life. We should live our lives focused and undistracted. We should always believe in ourselves and we must never compromise for comfort. Comfort is a fake. It is a deception. We should REALIZE BY NOW that life is no joke, not a bed of roses. Only then will we pass the gates of these fallacies and enter into REAL comfort. But, it is an everyday decision, everyday practice.

I remember before that in church discipleship that I heard this from Pastor Cora (though it may not be that accurate or precise, please bear with me):

"an action leads to a habit
a habit leads to a character
a character leads to destiny..."

This isn't pretty much the same but it's similar. Hehe...(different yung dalawang yun ah hehe) ayun, in continuation, we should always be on track of our LIFE mission and purpose, and we should not be distracted. If we get distacted, we'd be back again in life's foolish convenience and mundanity and complacency.

Let us work for a better self, always trust God (and that is always the bottom line). Let us also believe in the abilities that He (God) has given us. He wants us to use it wisely while He's away. He's watching anyway, but He's very forgiving. Let us not waste another day.

God bless us all!

Waiting

As I sit, I think of you
Fearing things I know ain't true
Wond'ring where you might be right now
Wishing you'd be here already somehow

I try to supress this feeling inside
I believe the good things, the doubts I hide
Waiting for the doors behind to slide
Till you're here just by my side

It's been hours and ages that I sit
You seem to be not able to ever make it
But patiently, again, I put my trust
I hold onto your words, I'll try to last

I knew before what I entered into
When I let my heart [to] be closer to you
I will not blame you for whatever you [might've] done
The day again's approaching, it shows the sun

I'd forgive and I'll forget your frailty
A thousand more than the infinity
If that's not enough, I'd give more
Until you'd look me and now adore

If though to you my heart I give
And you hold back and me you leave
It's just a stage to prove [to] you back
Of what real love is all about

Writer's notes: This is about forgiveness. People [that we love] may hurt us, but that's what love is all about. (To think that I'm actually saying this, haha, I should really learn this! :p) Real love forgives and is unconditional. It asks nothing in return. Though, the right response is gratefulness, love is still giving. Hmmm... :) hehehe

BTW, this is actually a variation of another one that I wrote entitled 'Traffic'. Hehe...I wrote it at the same time with a difference in a few minutes lang hehe. :) Kaso ito, about the person failing you, and you forgive, and then comes reality. Yung isa naman, it's comedic. In the end, paranoia lang pala, kelangan lang pala ng konting trust and there you have it. Patience pays. Pero beware of false patience. Baka sometimes we are patiently waiting for what we know isn't for us (or we aren't aware yet). Hehe. :) Wahahaha, am back to bloggin! :p bleh!!! Wahehehehe

"After pausing from Friendster and the internets..."

2 days ako nag-pause mag-internet huhu :)

Well kailangan ayusin ang mga bagay-bagay sa buhay-buhay para maging okay-okay ang paligid-ligid!!! Kailangan ding may focus-focus, hindi basta na lang bara-bara, parang hokus-pokus dahil ang buhay ay hindi magic-magic at basta-basta lang. Ito'y importanteng-importante at kailangang araw-araw ay ayusin natin ang ating pamumuhay. Oras-oras, minu-minuto, segu-segundo, kailangan nateng ituwid ang ating mga buhay at huwag magsayang-sayang ng panahon dahil ito'y buhay at ito'y mahalagang-mahalaga...

Hay, paulit-ulit ba, napansin niyo? Oo nga, napapansin-pansin ko din iyon minsan-minsan...pero susubukan kong dalas-dalasan ang pag-pansin dito sa susunod. May mga sumusunod-sunod pang pagpapatuloy-patuloy.

Wala lang, nais lang magsulat-sulat o post-post sa bulletin board na ito at nakakamiss talaga itong bulletin na ito. Biruin mo, dati-rati'y araw-araw kang nakakapag-bukas-bukas ng prendster akawnt mo, ngayo'y hindi na masya-masyado.

Hehe-hehe...just for laughs! :D

"something's stopping me..."

Something's stopping me to post any further... I can't post what I wanna post, even those that I've prepared before... Maybe I should pause first from this and breathe in air...

B-bye...

Lastikman

"If I’ll have the chance to be a pinoy super hero, I’ll choose Lastikman for a lot of good reasons.

Lastikman reflects a true Filipino heart. He is a good image of what a typical Filipino is. He has a lot of good Filipino traits.

One of Lastikman’s good traits is his being a family person. We Filipinos posses or have a good bond with our families. We use “ate” and “kuya” to show respect for elders. We “mano” on elderly people and we respect our parents. Lastikman practices and does all of that. He loves his family so much and even balances his time that he spends in saving other people and the time that he spends with his family.

Another reason why I like to be Lastikman is his love and compassion for others. He shows kindness to strangers on the streets and with the power that he has, he chooses to protect people.

Lastly, Lastikman is a very humble super hero. Even though he has superpowers and he is above ordinary people, he still chooses to remain low and he does not abuse his powers buy using it for evil and his own benefit, but instead, he helps and saves others.

He’s a very simple person that you won’t see a trace of his superhero ability and his superpowers if you meet him by the road.

Lastikman is a good-hearted person. His good heart that he has when he’s a superhero is just the same when he’s on his ordinary human form or disguise. His heart is his greatest possession that makes him a real ‘superhero’.

I believe that if anyone has the same heart that he has, even without superpowers or abilities, they are super heroes."

Writer's notes: I wrote this for Ate Grace's 2nd grade nephew. Hehe. Just a post :)

Full of Anger

What would happen if we fill ourselves
Of this hatred, retribution, non-sense?
When we are full of anger, what's next?
Does it rescue us from these dark nests?

Doesn't it reflect inside us?
Showing how we hate us?
From this deep-seated false emotion
When will we start to wake up?

Let us begin to love ourselves
And accept our failures
Empty our hearts so full of anger
Start to listen, stop to remember

Move on from our pasts
And see the light of today, tomorrow
See the rays of new hope
Fill our eyes with real colors

It feels way better
When you stop seeing all black
Try to hear this and discover
When you remove this stumbling block

"Do not be afraid..."

Do not be afraid of God and life... We love you and will never leave you...

"watching over you..."

I'll watch over you until you are able to stand on your feet... Am not gonna leave you and God help me... I am gonna see you strong and you'll be aflame...

Mirrored

Our faces shining
We see a library of truths
In front, a mirror showing
Not just agony but thoughts

Focus your eyes gracefully
Beyond what our eyes show
[Again] Observe carefully
Take your time, take it slow

It's a start of demise
Of your old man's reason
And it's the birth of promise
When you start to vision

When we see what it shows us
That truth is beauty
And reset our minds
From all our learning

We'll thank the mirrored images
That we used to point fingers
They are not mere lies
They show truth otherwise

Writer's notes: Sometimes [or for some, most of the times] when we see ourselves in the mirror, we don't see beauty. I wrote this so that we might be moved to see the beauty in the mirror. Let us appreciate what we have. They are not just things to hurt us, but it is a new set of learning. Forget a preset bad image of who you are. Put some value in yourself. When you see your weaknesses, don't be bothered, don't be afraid. They show beauty too. Read Romans 7:13-21. We see and feel weakness because we are 'aliens' from it. You are lucky. There are people who are numb of ill-doings. But you aren't... Put on some worth on yourself because you already have it...

Fallacies

I won't believe you
I know, it's not true
These are all lies
I haven't lost you

Why do you keep pushing
When you know it won't push through
The bars of truth, reality
The gates of such virtue?

Stop all these lying
He's left there and crying
Catch all his tears and
Start seeing him smiling

You do not own supremacy
You know it ain't true
I'll write my own history
Whatever push you do

Infuse truth in your eyes
Silence all these made-up stories
Start to see everything synchronize
Shut off all these fallacies

Writer's notes: Whenever you feel like losing in this life, in it's game, do not believe in it. Do not believe in failure. Failure is just a deception. Stand once again on your feet, practice your feet into walking till they're strong enough and until you're able to stand. Believe. Believe in Him always... Believe in who He say you are, and be aware of your identity, of that secured position on secure ground...

Undeserving

Some are undeserving
Of that attention you've given
Of that treatment you've showed them
Yet they recieve all of them

Some are undeserving
To recieve things that way
To be cared for that way
Because they throw it all away

Some deserve more
Yet we don't look their way
Yet we ignore them always
And a question hangs

When will this end?
When will the arrows point
Towards the right direction?
When is [from all of this,] the moment of salvation?

We wanted things that are not for us
We failed to see things meant for us
Now let us [let Him] open our eyes
And see more than our expectations

Writer's note: Aren't we all undeserving? Yet we still recieve. Let us look on the right direction, let us direct our lives on the right track after being aware of this reality. And, this isn't just us, we pour out our hearts into things that doesn't really deserve it. We praise, we worship other undeserving things too much. This time, think again. Think were that praise, that worship should really go. Who is really deserving? Reflect [on] with what you have today. Examine the things you possess. You might not see that those are things that you should treasure and truly cherish. We might not know that we have it all already yet we still look aside, not knowing what we need in life is in front of us. Open our eyes... Let 'Him' open our eyes...

"I Love this Day"

I love this day. It's so new, so brilliant, so different, so special, so unique!

Before, I spend my Halloween day afraid (maybe) of 'rituals' that occultists do. Now, where are they? I feel love, I feel the goodness of the month, the season. It's just a step away from complete appreciation of everything in this world.

Bow, end of my 11:15 AM blog :p

November's (Halloween's) Eve

This probably is my last post for this morning of november's first dawn. 1:05 AM on the clock.

This Eve is different than Halloween eves I had before. It's not at all scary were you think of ghosts to scare yourself and think that you're stupid after a while (cos nothing happens).

To top off what's different about this Halloween eve, I'll include the reason because it had a meaning for the first time. It's kuya Pao's birthday today, and that is someting special. He's the only person I know whos birthday is on the drop of November 1. That's a spark of life in it, adding colour to that day, adding meaning, adding much significance.

Aside from meaningful and special birthdays, I've gone out in thinking of ghosts and spirits. I've discovered new and much interesting significance for the day.

Here they are (people approaching). I think I've said enough to call it a day.

God bless everybody! :)))))))))

Beauty in November

I sit outside gates of this house
I gaze towards the grayish clouds
They're really dark and block the sun
It's quiet there's the lack of fun

But I stare again around me gently
I examine things that are beside me
And now I can see the inner beauty
Behind the fogs of reality

This darkness is only for a season
In all that happens, there's a good reason
Let us explore the sides of colors in the skies
Beyond the walls that cloud our eyes

In every season there is beauty
We just need to unlock it like a mystery
Let us adjust the lenses of our eyes
To see [the] real beauty in its disguise

Seasons of sorrows in the brink of night
And laughter in the height of daylight
They're all just the same being
Just one in different clothing

It is such a great and wond'rous discovery
When you begin to see the real scenery
Behind the things that sometimes seem
To temporarily rob our serenity

Writer's notes: I've shared this to the Birthday boy of today, este, Birthday king pala hehehe. I've told him about my [this] reflection before, greeting him in advance for his birthday.

It's about time there is life in what I'm writing, not just mere exercise and expression. Dead naman hahaha.

Eto pala yung original na dapat na i-gift ko (simple gift actually) para kay Kuya Pao, compared ba naman sa worth niya sa'ten diba? Ahehe. (Oo nga naman, come to think of it...) hehehe, at may mga reflections and realizations pa? Galing talaga.

There's always lot to learn (and that is to sleep na siguro, I guess hehe. 1 AM na naman, gising pa rin!).

God bless everyone and to the special birthday celebrant. May he feel special and stop denying it! Hehehe :) Cheers for him! :)

Child of November (A Tribute)

Child of November (A Tribute)

She’s the child of November

She’s a wonderful gift

You might think that it's awful

[to be] Born on months like this

But you should see else

See things she possess

The beauty of November

Epitome of [its] goodness

November may be dark

Silent and bleak

Yes she may be, but

She’s also way wond'rous

She devoted her time

And shared what she had

What more wonderful gift

Could ever match that?

On her special day of remembrance

We're thankful she’s here

A gift of God to everyone

Let us give her a cheer

We will wish you a candle

On your special day

May we see more hearty laughters

On your Happy Birthday! :p

P.S.

Repurposed my old poem for my friend. 😌