Finally, I have updated my friendster! Wahhh!!! :'( *tears of joy and drama*
Check it out here:
http://profiles.friendster.com/matcieou7th
And, the first time after months to visit my own page. At last, busy days are turning to be over! Bwahaha! >:)
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
"Sometimes"
Sometimes, people think too much of others... that they forget theirselves and their own welfare... that they lose their soul, their name...
"I've cared too much"
I've cared too much (about "you").
Now, I've realized, I don't really do care and that I don't know why I even did in the first place. Now, I'm on my own. I'm done caring for the things that doesn't really deserve my attention.
So, you're good. It's a given. What now after that? I don't see myself full and satisfied at your goodness. I can't and don't see how I will profit by and with it anyway. I don't even know you, or even if I do (or did), what is it to me?
People pass and go, and you don't really know who stays long. And those people who do probably aren't even in our life yet. What's next? What awaits our future? Uncertainty?
...
I don't think it's uncertainty... I just wanna call it "a perfect plan" that our minds cannot (and I do not even wish to) comprehend or fathom. I realize that [*there are] good things [*that] get better through surprises... :)
Now, I've realized, I don't really do care and that I don't know why I even did in the first place. Now, I'm on my own. I'm done caring for the things that doesn't really deserve my attention.
So, you're good. It's a given. What now after that? I don't see myself full and satisfied at your goodness. I can't and don't see how I will profit by and with it anyway. I don't even know you, or even if I do (or did), what is it to me?
People pass and go, and you don't really know who stays long. And those people who do probably aren't even in our life yet. What's next? What awaits our future? Uncertainty?
...
I don't think it's uncertainty... I just wanna call it "a perfect plan" that our minds cannot (and I do not even wish to) comprehend or fathom. I realize that [*there are] good things [*that] get better through surprises... :)
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Lies
I just "saw", no, maybe read something that I didn't really like. How am I to react? You might, if you were in my position, ask, "where is justice in the world?".
I believe justice exists -- the mere fact that we are aware of its seemingly absence, there it is.
Think of it -- is justice laid on a silver spoon? When has it, in reality, ever been like that? You know the "absence" of justice. How were you able to know it? You have eyes, ears, lips, hands and feet. Should you use it?
Hear-says. The most effortful way of gaining and attaining knowledge. Oh, I can't force everyone else to believe in what I believe in. I just hope that at least in myself, I believe right.
I believe justice exists -- the mere fact that we are aware of its seemingly absence, there it is.
Think of it -- is justice laid on a silver spoon? When has it, in reality, ever been like that? You know the "absence" of justice. How were you able to know it? You have eyes, ears, lips, hands and feet. Should you use it?
Hear-says. The most effortful way of gaining and attaining knowledge. Oh, I can't force everyone else to believe in what I believe in. I just hope that at least in myself, I believe right.
I wanna be a SUPERHERO
They have always said that we must "save the best for last". For me, it has become an erring principle. It has been malpracticed and/or at least, it has so far done too much damage than good in my life.
Don't put in store the things that must be done -- that is what I have learned. The more you get chances, the more you grab it. The reason why so many talented, skilled, and able people miss out on the very narrow chances of being in the spotlight is that they don't have the connections, and they "pass on" the chance for the reasons as follows: a.) be-humble-effect, b.) save-the-best-for-last.
We have just discussed in my Logic class the different kinds of Logical fallacies. One of the fallacies, named "the fallacy of accident" says that there is a fallacy committed if a general principle is applied to special cases. For example: a child was asked by his dad to stay in their house and not to leave until he returns. When the house where the child was on fire, the child, knowing that his dad commanded him to "stay" didn't move at all. As a result, oh, just guess what happened.
Some superhero might have saved that child's life, you might say. But, come to think of it, superheroes are not so common these days. We are in great need of superheroes... Define superhero -- the Jack-of-all-trades type of person who, though in all kinds of stresses and distress, still manage to do everything that needs to be done, is there for everyone that people think they don't have problems of their own, and are looked upon highly of others. Why? Cos they CHOSE TO BE SUPERHEROES. What is a superheroes life anyway? What are the decisions that they make? Are they just made superheroes for us to watch them? No. They are made superheroes because they chose to UTILIZE CAREFULLY and practically (maybe) the things that they can do and the things that they are. We are all the same, in some degree, and we must grab that chance to be a superhero in our own right too.
You can call it a superhero, a talent, a leader, a star, an "unreachable" or whatever, but I choose to call them "people who chose to believe in the things that has been given to them by God Divine."
Don't put in store the things that must be done -- that is what I have learned. The more you get chances, the more you grab it. The reason why so many talented, skilled, and able people miss out on the very narrow chances of being in the spotlight is that they don't have the connections, and they "pass on" the chance for the reasons as follows: a.) be-humble-effect, b.) save-the-best-for-last.
We have just discussed in my Logic class the different kinds of Logical fallacies. One of the fallacies, named "the fallacy of accident" says that there is a fallacy committed if a general principle is applied to special cases. For example: a child was asked by his dad to stay in their house and not to leave until he returns. When the house where the child was on fire, the child, knowing that his dad commanded him to "stay" didn't move at all. As a result, oh, just guess what happened.
Some superhero might have saved that child's life, you might say. But, come to think of it, superheroes are not so common these days. We are in great need of superheroes... Define superhero -- the Jack-of-all-trades type of person who, though in all kinds of stresses and distress, still manage to do everything that needs to be done, is there for everyone that people think they don't have problems of their own, and are looked upon highly of others. Why? Cos they CHOSE TO BE SUPERHEROES. What is a superheroes life anyway? What are the decisions that they make? Are they just made superheroes for us to watch them? No. They are made superheroes because they chose to UTILIZE CAREFULLY and practically (maybe) the things that they can do and the things that they are. We are all the same, in some degree, and we must grab that chance to be a superhero in our own right too.
You can call it a superhero, a talent, a leader, a star, an "unreachable" or whatever, but I choose to call them "people who chose to believe in the things that has been given to them by God Divine."
Just don't let you brain die up on you
You may feel down, disappointed and grounded
But you shouldn't give up
You may feel like everything's crashing down on you
But you shouldn't walk out
You may feel that you're going nowhere
But know that you're on track
You may feel that it's just too much
But you just have to realize that you can do it
You may feel really tired
But you just have to see that you've gone far
Whenever you feel that all this is happening
The more you stand up
Whenever your insides wage war against you
The more you keep yourself intact
Whenever the word is all shaking
The more you get strong
Whenever you're sunk so low
The more should you see and have fun
Whenever you're running after a fearful deadline
The more you should give your best
And all these will fix itself
Just neer give up
Just don't let your brain die up on you
And let the rest be history... ;-,
But you shouldn't give up
You may feel like everything's crashing down on you
But you shouldn't walk out
You may feel that you're going nowhere
But know that you're on track
You may feel that it's just too much
But you just have to realize that you can do it
You may feel really tired
But you just have to see that you've gone far
Whenever you feel that all this is happening
The more you stand up
Whenever your insides wage war against you
The more you keep yourself intact
Whenever the word is all shaking
The more you get strong
Whenever you're sunk so low
The more should you see and have fun
Whenever you're running after a fearful deadline
The more you should give your best
And all these will fix itself
Just neer give up
Just don't let your brain die up on you
And let the rest be history... ;-,
Monday, March 10, 2008
I Need You
A fast scribble of expression...
I need you
I wanna run into your arms
My eyes shed tears
Just to touch you, just to have you back
Or at least be back
To the place where you are
And feel you once again
Surrounding me, receiving me
This is all I wanna do
I shut my ears
From the world outside
Until you hear me, until you cover me
You see I am wretched
Without you written in my heart
And so I need you
Cos today I realized, I am lost
Let me cry
Let me not see anything
I forget the shame
Cos all I know is you, your name
I am not the same
Cos you have made the change
This is all I want
You in me, you beside me
(I just wanna be back!! I don't know where I belong ---)
I need you
I wanna run into your arms
My eyes shed tears
Just to touch you, just to have you back
Or at least be back
To the place where you are
And feel you once again
Surrounding me, receiving me
This is all I wanna do
I shut my ears
From the world outside
Until you hear me, until you cover me
You see I am wretched
Without you written in my heart
And so I need you
Cos today I realized, I am lost
Let me cry
Let me not see anything
I forget the shame
Cos all I know is you, your name
I am not the same
Cos you have made the change
This is all I want
You in me, you beside me
(I just wanna be back!! I don't know where I belong ---)
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Found: The Race of Life
I've found out what I need to search for in life.
I want to be what God wants me to be...
People think that it is through living a religious and devout life. They know too little. I, too, know little. I might even know nothing but I do have an idea.
God's ways and will is too unsearchable, unreachable, unfathomable. We can never comprehend His ways. So, how can we exactly be what He wants us to be if we do not even know what it is?
The answer is in the process. We aren't required to "know" what God wants us to be, but instead, to "BE" what He wants us to be. There is great discretion between merely "knowing" and "being". In the part of "knowing", we are failures. Who can touch or even reach God's glorious wisdom? Now, how do we "become" what He wants us to be? Simple but not easy. He said,
1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost."
-Isaiah 55:1
It is through letting Him lift us in His shoulder for us to become what He wants us to be. It is through allowing His indescribable ways. It is through trusting the almighty that our human minds cannot comprehend. Listen carefully. He will speak. There is power.
Ponder this: what matters most in life's road? Is it the destination? Are we made better by the goals that we aim for? Surely not. It is the process that make us reach a destination. There is no cheating in life. You are made better by the better WALK that you walk in. And what better walk than the path were we shun all distractions along the way?
"1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
- Hebrews 12:1-2
Let us RUN A RACE, not be DRAGGED FROM THE RACE...
Good night!
I want to be what God wants me to be...
People think that it is through living a religious and devout life. They know too little. I, too, know little. I might even know nothing but I do have an idea.
God's ways and will is too unsearchable, unreachable, unfathomable. We can never comprehend His ways. So, how can we exactly be what He wants us to be if we do not even know what it is?
The answer is in the process. We aren't required to "know" what God wants us to be, but instead, to "BE" what He wants us to be. There is great discretion between merely "knowing" and "being". In the part of "knowing", we are failures. Who can touch or even reach God's glorious wisdom? Now, how do we "become" what He wants us to be? Simple but not easy. He said,
1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost."
-Isaiah 55:1
It is through letting Him lift us in His shoulder for us to become what He wants us to be. It is through allowing His indescribable ways. It is through trusting the almighty that our human minds cannot comprehend. Listen carefully. He will speak. There is power.
Ponder this: what matters most in life's road? Is it the destination? Are we made better by the goals that we aim for? Surely not. It is the process that make us reach a destination. There is no cheating in life. You are made better by the better WALK that you walk in. And what better walk than the path were we shun all distractions along the way?
"1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
- Hebrews 12:1-2
Let us RUN A RACE, not be DRAGGED FROM THE RACE...
Good night!
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
a boring survey. wala lang. try niyong pumili ng isang ndi typical na taong piliin and ndi funny na person (or special).
Message: Isip ka ng ISANG tao. i-base mo sa kanya ang mga isasagot mo. WALANG ibahan ng naisip.
1.) friend mo ba siya sa friendster?
- Uhh, yeah.
2.) Bakit siya napili mo sa survey na ito?
- Cos I think I need to know the person more (discover) and cos that person really matters to me.
3.) anong lugar ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
- Another realm where geographic boundaries cannot contain.
4.) anong song ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
- Madami eh. Fear. :p pwede na din yung "Train Wreck"
5.) bakit?
- Hay, typical. I wonder how people qualify their candidates (or person) for this survey. But, going back, I chose the song/s because they really uhm sink in with the thought for that person.
6.) okay ba ang height?
- okay lang. Pero, personally, ndi.
7.) magaling ba kumanta?
- I think, fair enough. Some say really lovely voice.
8.) May kamukha ba siyang artista/singer?
- I dunno I don't think so.
11.) nakita mo na siyang magalit?
- No. I can't happen to notice when that happens kasi.
12.) eh ngumiti?
- Yep.
13.) eh umiyak?
- I think.
14.) ano fave food nya?
- Wala. :p donuts?
15.) pinaiyak ka ba niya?
- Uh, no.
16.) pinaiyak mo ba siya?
- Yata?
17.) anong fav niyang sports
- Swimming. Tennis is next.
18.) anong fav niyang song?
- not sure.
19.) anong tawagan niyo?
- wala.
20.) message mo sa kanya?
- wala.
1.) friend mo ba siya sa friendster?
- Uhh, yeah.
2.) Bakit siya napili mo sa survey na ito?
- Cos I think I need to know the person more (discover) and cos that person really matters to me.
3.) anong lugar ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
- Another realm where geographic boundaries cannot contain.
4.) anong song ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
- Madami eh. Fear. :p pwede na din yung "Train Wreck"
5.) bakit?
- Hay, typical. I wonder how people qualify their candidates (or person) for this survey. But, going back, I chose the song/s because they really uhm sink in with the thought for that person.
6.) okay ba ang height?
- okay lang. Pero, personally, ndi.
7.) magaling ba kumanta?
- I think, fair enough. Some say really lovely voice.
8.) May kamukha ba siyang artista/singer?
- I dunno I don't think so.
11.) nakita mo na siyang magalit?
- No. I can't happen to notice when that happens kasi.
12.) eh ngumiti?
- Yep.
13.) eh umiyak?
- I think.
14.) ano fave food nya?
- Wala. :p donuts?
15.) pinaiyak ka ba niya?
- Uh, no.
16.) pinaiyak mo ba siya?
- Yata?
17.) anong fav niyang sports
- Swimming. Tennis is next.
18.) anong fav niyang song?
- not sure.
19.) anong tawagan niyo?
- wala.
20.) message mo sa kanya?
- wala.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Another Page Turned
It makes you dizzy... To turn this page. After seconds, minutes, hours, days, and years of writing on it, then you finish it with a dot. A page is turned again. A new blank page. Nothing is written, nothing said.
You've built your dreams, hoping for the best. When you're almost there with high hopes, you flunk and hit the ground. Why do we believe? What are the things meant for us? Where are we headed? Where do we belong?
There are still a hundred, no, maybe thousands and uncountable pages. Nothing written. I don't know if I'd be excited or not to turn another one. It takes years to finish. Takes years to turn. And when we turn, we're left with nothing but space to write on.
When will it work? When will I keep on writing? Because the hardest part in doing this is to hold on, to go on writing another page. To hope is no joke. Sometimes when you've fallen so low and hit the ground so hard, it's just too deadly...
I do not know if we heal. But, nobody else's gonna do the healing for me...
You've built your dreams, hoping for the best. When you're almost there with high hopes, you flunk and hit the ground. Why do we believe? What are the things meant for us? Where are we headed? Where do we belong?
There are still a hundred, no, maybe thousands and uncountable pages. Nothing written. I don't know if I'd be excited or not to turn another one. It takes years to finish. Takes years to turn. And when we turn, we're left with nothing but space to write on.
When will it work? When will I keep on writing? Because the hardest part in doing this is to hold on, to go on writing another page. To hope is no joke. Sometimes when you've fallen so low and hit the ground so hard, it's just too deadly...
I do not know if we heal. But, nobody else's gonna do the healing for me...
What if...?
What happens when we lose our faith in the things that we used to believe in? In the things that we used to put our trust to?
There are things that made us believe that we could dream and reach them. But today, things just seem dimmer. It just appears like everything is a fake and everything was a joke -- a lie. This happens everytime.
Is there no azenith? Is there no sky? I have never been there, and does it really exist? Is it only an illusion? What is the use of hoping anymore?
It seems like giving up is the best solution. It appears that to move away is the wisest option. It's not productive anymore.
There are things that made us believe that we could dream and reach them. But today, things just seem dimmer. It just appears like everything is a fake and everything was a joke -- a lie. This happens everytime.
Is there no azenith? Is there no sky? I have never been there, and does it really exist? Is it only an illusion? What is the use of hoping anymore?
It seems like giving up is the best solution. It appears that to move away is the wisest option. It's not productive anymore.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
funny "EXs" survey :)
(Matt's personal note, do not copy this part: hahaha, wish ko lang! Mangarap ba na may ex ka? And if that's even possible with mah state??? Hehe. Pero, sagot pa din, for the thrill and joy of it. :p)
pano pag cnabi sayo to ng ex mo? what'll you reply or how will you react?
1. bkit ba kase pinakawalan pa kita?
♥ e bakit ba naman kasi sa akin mo tinatanong iyan?
2. pede ba mkipagbalikan?
♥ san ka babalik? I mean, kanino? hehe. (pero since ako kausap mo...) Ehrm, that depends.
3. lam mo masaya ako sau noon.?
♥ alam mo, parang ndi question yan. bakit may question mark. and, thanks for saying that pala...
4. mahal pa rin kita!
♥ love is like a mystery. :p do you know what love really is? do we know what love really is??? anybody in this world does??? wahhh!!! :p (in my tiny own world, hehe)
5. sana maitama natin ung mali natin
♥ cheating yun. haha. kidding. :p better, matuto na lang sa mga mistakes, for the past can't be undone.
6. kailan nga ba tau huling nag-usap?
♥ I dunno. :p
7. pede bng samahan mo ko?
♥ sure. samahan lang naman eh. :)
8. nkapag move-on ka na ba?
♥ yeah, I wonderfully lost and I can live on with that FACT! :p life goes on! haha! elections talaga! :p (related??? hehe)
9.lam mo pinagcchan ko lhat ng
nngyari sa atin?
♥ yan na naman ang question mong ndi dapat question... uhm, i think i do too. that's why we're better off apart. but, at least let's all learn. forgive and forget.
10. d ko matutupad promise ko sau!
♥ mahirap yan. kaya we should've kept our mouths shut. there better be solutions...
11. ayaw ng parents ko sau!
♥ woah, wait. did i ask them to like me? kaya nga eks diba???
12. alam mo gumaganda ka!
♥ (or pumopogi): i'm not aware. haggard nga ako lagi eh. ninungaling. hehe. pero still thanks for the effort to make me feel good, and seeing me beautiful even in my state. bakit nga ba eks pa kita??? hehe... pwedeng y na lang? o z? wahaha :p
13. nagbago ka na!
♥ change is innevitable. hehe... sorry, i really have changed, and it's out of my control :( no matter how hard i try not to, i still do :'(
14. Mas magaling sya!
♥ ayy, malaman! hahaha. :p but, who are you to judge? judgment is subjective. it differs from one person to another. sabi ng eks niya din sa kanya iyan pala, lam mo yun???
15. sana dumating pa ang panahon na
mgiging tayo ulit.
♥ why wish when you (we) can make it happen? and should it happen?
16. may mahal k na bang iba?
♥ i dunno what love is pa eh. sorry. dats why ol dis happened.
17. bkit ba ang cold mo na sken?
♥ is dat something to ask your eks?
18. loser ka tlga!
♥ matagal na! hahaha :p
19. sana mamatay kn!
♥ then on the 3rd day, I'll rise again. haha. kidding. :'( don't wish bad. life is a gift!
20. ang kapal ng mukha mo!
♥ kelangan eh. para bumoto sila. haha. :p
21. pinagcchan kong nging tau.
♥ (i honestly think the same) *silence*
22.???
♥ gibberish
23. di ka mggng msya.walanghiya ka!
♥ selos ka lang. hehe. e bakti masaya ako ngaun? (dahil sa reaction mo, wahaha)
24. mahal kita di na magbabago yun.
♥ PROVE IT. ~nice (kay Camille ata yan eh hehe). Den, teach me wat love is... :p
pano pag cnabi sayo to ng ex mo? what'll you reply or how will you react?
1. bkit ba kase pinakawalan pa kita?
♥ e bakit ba naman kasi sa akin mo tinatanong iyan?
2. pede ba mkipagbalikan?
♥ san ka babalik? I mean, kanino? hehe. (pero since ako kausap mo...) Ehrm, that depends.
3. lam mo masaya ako sau noon.?
♥ alam mo, parang ndi question yan. bakit may question mark. and, thanks for saying that pala...
4. mahal pa rin kita!
♥ love is like a mystery. :p do you know what love really is? do we know what love really is??? anybody in this world does??? wahhh!!! :p (in my tiny own world, hehe)
5. sana maitama natin ung mali natin
♥ cheating yun. haha. kidding. :p better, matuto na lang sa mga mistakes, for the past can't be undone.
6. kailan nga ba tau huling nag-usap?
♥ I dunno. :p
7. pede bng samahan mo ko?
♥ sure. samahan lang naman eh. :)
8. nkapag move-on ka na ba?
♥ yeah, I wonderfully lost and I can live on with that FACT! :p life goes on! haha! elections talaga! :p (related??? hehe)
9.lam mo pinagcchan ko lhat ng
nngyari sa atin?
♥ yan na naman ang question mong ndi dapat question... uhm, i think i do too. that's why we're better off apart. but, at least let's all learn. forgive and forget.
10. d ko matutupad promise ko sau!
♥ mahirap yan. kaya we should've kept our mouths shut. there better be solutions...
11. ayaw ng parents ko sau!
♥ woah, wait. did i ask them to like me? kaya nga eks diba???
12. alam mo gumaganda ka!
♥ (or pumopogi): i'm not aware. haggard nga ako lagi eh. ninungaling. hehe. pero still thanks for the effort to make me feel good, and seeing me beautiful even in my state. bakit nga ba eks pa kita??? hehe... pwedeng y na lang? o z? wahaha :p
13. nagbago ka na!
♥ change is innevitable. hehe... sorry, i really have changed, and it's out of my control :( no matter how hard i try not to, i still do :'(
14. Mas magaling sya!
♥ ayy, malaman! hahaha. :p but, who are you to judge? judgment is subjective. it differs from one person to another. sabi ng eks niya din sa kanya iyan pala, lam mo yun???
15. sana dumating pa ang panahon na
mgiging tayo ulit.
♥ why wish when you (we) can make it happen? and should it happen?
16. may mahal k na bang iba?
♥ i dunno what love is pa eh. sorry. dats why ol dis happened.
17. bkit ba ang cold mo na sken?
♥ is dat something to ask your eks?
18. loser ka tlga!
♥ matagal na! hahaha :p
19. sana mamatay kn!
♥ then on the 3rd day, I'll rise again. haha. kidding. :'( don't wish bad. life is a gift!
20. ang kapal ng mukha mo!
♥ kelangan eh. para bumoto sila. haha. :p
21. pinagcchan kong nging tau.
♥ (i honestly think the same) *silence*
22.???
♥ gibberish
23. di ka mggng msya.walanghiya ka!
♥ selos ka lang. hehe. e bakti masaya ako ngaun? (dahil sa reaction mo, wahaha)
24. mahal kita di na magbabago yun.
♥ PROVE IT. ~nice (kay Camille ata yan eh hehe). Den, teach me wat love is... :p
Saturday, March 1, 2008
What movies (or whatever stuff) qualify as my favorite???
I don't have lots of friends, preferences, likes, and favourites. I don't necessarily have very best of friends (best friends), favourite colors, favorite dishes, and etcetera in particular. But, maybe, I do, yet I am just not aware.
Recently, (actually, you can say that it happens every moment) I've gone through some thinking and reflections about what my favourites are cos if you ask me what those might be, I'd give you blank. You'd bother me to pause a moment and think, and then realize that I do not know the answer. It would only force myself unto believing that I should have a "favourite something" like a color, and also force me to incline myself unto something. So, as a solution, I've been able to observe what I've been doing (and/or habits) and came up with the following thoughts...
First, I really like seafood. Yep, you heard right. I like those dishes, ulams that my mom used to cook when I was still little. In my younger years, I also realized, that I like the way my mom cooks. She's great and I actually miss her dishes cos the house-assists usually does that job today. I have also realized that I really want to learn how to cook because I saw how I appreciate muchly how good food cooked from the heart tastes -- satisfying and heart-filling.
Regarding movies, I can only say that a certain movie belongs to my favourites list if, in my mind, I wanna watch it again. I usually ignore the impulses and/or the thoughts in my head saying "I wanna see this movie again" or "what title was that movie? Cos I think I'm gonna watch it again and that it was great". I usually ignore those behaviour of mine. When I watch movies and I actually like it, I pay great attention to details. That's why I wanna go watching over and over again a movie that I like (although I do not have the means to do it, namely: time and such great drive or passion for movies). Great thing that I live in a time where REWIND and PAUSE has been invented, though.
I have just realized, too, that movies are actually masterpieces. I bother too much to find that "perfect" and "make-me-and-eye-feel-goody" feeling. I fail to see that set right before my eyes are actually hard-work of people of different feet and that if I could place myself in their position, I'd perfectly understand their sweat and sighs.
Much to my words, this blog is actually for a Movie that I have watched recently. That gave me the idea of what I want in a movie (thinking first of adding it to my favourites list on friendster, but, reminiscing and reflecting, knowing that in the future, I am certain that it would only be erased and be forgotten for I still haven't discovered how I choose my favourites and that there is still more to be seen and that perfect one will be the one -- perfectionism and my being reserved). I didn't make it to see the movie from the start. I began in the middle part of the movie that they were watching. I probably began watching it while I was having dinner because everyone was enjoying themselves with it. And, since the dining table was near the place where they were watching, I just joined in.
The movie I have just watched is "Juno", a delicate and intricate story that tells of a young girl named Juno who got pregnant -- and the kind of life that she has. I actually liked it and the different realities and ideas that it wonderfully and artistically showcased. I'm actually planning to write a review for it, but I don't think I'm gonna make it. I'm gonna wake up pretty early and catch up a seminar early morning in school that focuses on animation and etc. which the profs. will require daw for our thesis. Ayun. That's it. My blog ends here. :p
Recently, (actually, you can say that it happens every moment) I've gone through some thinking and reflections about what my favourites are cos if you ask me what those might be, I'd give you blank. You'd bother me to pause a moment and think, and then realize that I do not know the answer. It would only force myself unto believing that I should have a "favourite something" like a color, and also force me to incline myself unto something. So, as a solution, I've been able to observe what I've been doing (and/or habits) and came up with the following thoughts...
First, I really like seafood. Yep, you heard right. I like those dishes, ulams that my mom used to cook when I was still little. In my younger years, I also realized, that I like the way my mom cooks. She's great and I actually miss her dishes cos the house-assists usually does that job today. I have also realized that I really want to learn how to cook because I saw how I appreciate muchly how good food cooked from the heart tastes -- satisfying and heart-filling.
Regarding movies, I can only say that a certain movie belongs to my favourites list if, in my mind, I wanna watch it again. I usually ignore the impulses and/or the thoughts in my head saying "I wanna see this movie again" or "what title was that movie? Cos I think I'm gonna watch it again and that it was great". I usually ignore those behaviour of mine. When I watch movies and I actually like it, I pay great attention to details. That's why I wanna go watching over and over again a movie that I like (although I do not have the means to do it, namely: time and such great drive or passion for movies). Great thing that I live in a time where REWIND and PAUSE has been invented, though.
I have just realized, too, that movies are actually masterpieces. I bother too much to find that "perfect" and "make-me-and-eye-feel-goody" feeling. I fail to see that set right before my eyes are actually hard-work of people of different feet and that if I could place myself in their position, I'd perfectly understand their sweat and sighs.
Much to my words, this blog is actually for a Movie that I have watched recently. That gave me the idea of what I want in a movie (thinking first of adding it to my favourites list on friendster, but, reminiscing and reflecting, knowing that in the future, I am certain that it would only be erased and be forgotten for I still haven't discovered how I choose my favourites and that there is still more to be seen and that perfect one will be the one -- perfectionism and my being reserved). I didn't make it to see the movie from the start. I began in the middle part of the movie that they were watching. I probably began watching it while I was having dinner because everyone was enjoying themselves with it. And, since the dining table was near the place where they were watching, I just joined in.
The movie I have just watched is "Juno", a delicate and intricate story that tells of a young girl named Juno who got pregnant -- and the kind of life that she has. I actually liked it and the different realities and ideas that it wonderfully and artistically showcased. I'm actually planning to write a review for it, but I don't think I'm gonna make it. I'm gonna wake up pretty early and catch up a seminar early morning in school that focuses on animation and etc. which the profs. will require daw for our thesis. Ayun. That's it. My blog ends here. :p
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Centerstage (an Explosive event!)
This is definitely one of the nice events that De La Salle University - Dasmariñas hosted. Galing talaga. We're on track and we still have a lot to learn. :)
I really enjoyed the night and the "sights" (you'd know what I'm saying if you were there too, haha, lol!) and the sounds. But, much better of the two is the "sights" pa din. Ahaha. :p Too bad, la ako camera to capture those "sights" that I so gladly talk about! :p
Galing ng mga dancers, start pa lang sa Pointes (na first time ko napanood ng Live Performance, galing nila!) at ang Lasallian Pop Band na umaarangkada din naman sa galing. But (yep, there is a but!!!), I've seen way much better. Hehe. Was good, but there was just indeniably so much better. Hehe. (Remember Jessica? The, like, 10-year old ata kiddo?, haha! Hands down pa din). Pero, still, worth it pa din naman yung show, and they all did good or greatto. :p
The singers and contestants were great. I appreciate it that, though, some performed with pitchy, scratchy and nervous voices, they were there and they had fun. Uh, nope. I need to correct that. They entertained us, aside from they just having fun up there.
To share na din sa inyo, I was a bit privileged to be able to seat near the stage for a cheaper price. Tapos may connections pa sa events spearheaders (CIH, galing ng event na ito!!! Bwahaha, draculan/evil-laughter para sa kanilang nang-ahas na hindi umattend at sinayang ang pagkakataong makapunta sa isang hindi maikukumparang event na tulad nito!!! Bwahaha ulit! Hehe. Lol.), which made me really lucky, or I'd rather say, blessed.
The dancers were much more entertaining than the singers, for me. Kasi ndi ko kaya yun eh. All of your senses will be involved while watching eh. You're skin tingles, hair stands, heart beats with the strong bass-beat, and your eyes feast on that wonderful and gracious movements in front (not to mention your ear's subtle amusement of the sounds going with the beat). Spectacular. Swerte talaga malapit yung place na naupuan ko! Thank you ate Karen, President of CIHSC and iba pa!!! Thank you for allowing me to seat with you sa row na yun! :p
Everything was nice. Almost perfect. Perfectly human, that is! Perfect enough for us, forerunners, sa ganitong event. A bit blurry vision from the emcee, a bit pitchy voice of a nervous singer, and so on and so on. But everything still failed not to be perfect. :)
This one is really nice. Dami ko din natutunan sa event na 'to. In the middle of the event, of the show, I had the chance to reflect that my being there is different and was actually a blessing. I enjoyed the time instead of being the same old Matthew who used to do boring and repetitive things, learning just another extension of what I already know. Haha.
Uh-oh, right now my head is beginning to feel light and dizzy na. Haha. Hilo at antok nako. Wait! Di pa pala ako nakakapag-dinner!
As I finish out this blog, I just have a few words to say: "don't tell me you want out of this, don't say goodbye this can't be it cos it's not worth it!" (Note: yan po ang exactong lines ng kantang pinakikinggan ko right now, hahaha. :p) Geh, see you (myself around in the mirror? wahaha!) :p
ZZzzzz_______zzzzzzZZZZZ
P.S.
Kuya Gelo, hehehe... Yep, ganda nga. Hahaha. Kuya Abet, mainit na labanan! Hahaha. :) Galing nilang lahat! ;)
I really enjoyed the night and the "sights" (you'd know what I'm saying if you were there too, haha, lol!) and the sounds. But, much better of the two is the "sights" pa din. Ahaha. :p Too bad, la ako camera to capture those "sights" that I so gladly talk about! :p
Galing ng mga dancers, start pa lang sa Pointes (na first time ko napanood ng Live Performance, galing nila!) at ang Lasallian Pop Band na umaarangkada din naman sa galing. But (yep, there is a but!!!), I've seen way much better. Hehe. Was good, but there was just indeniably so much better. Hehe. (Remember Jessica? The, like, 10-year old ata kiddo?, haha! Hands down pa din). Pero, still, worth it pa din naman yung show, and they all did good or greatto. :p
The singers and contestants were great. I appreciate it that, though, some performed with pitchy, scratchy and nervous voices, they were there and they had fun. Uh, nope. I need to correct that. They entertained us, aside from they just having fun up there.
To share na din sa inyo, I was a bit privileged to be able to seat near the stage for a cheaper price. Tapos may connections pa sa events spearheaders (CIH, galing ng event na ito!!! Bwahaha, draculan/evil-laughter para sa kanilang nang-ahas na hindi umattend at sinayang ang pagkakataong makapunta sa isang hindi maikukumparang event na tulad nito!!! Bwahaha ulit! Hehe. Lol.), which made me really lucky, or I'd rather say, blessed.
The dancers were much more entertaining than the singers, for me. Kasi ndi ko kaya yun eh. All of your senses will be involved while watching eh. You're skin tingles, hair stands, heart beats with the strong bass-beat, and your eyes feast on that wonderful and gracious movements in front (not to mention your ear's subtle amusement of the sounds going with the beat). Spectacular. Swerte talaga malapit yung place na naupuan ko! Thank you ate Karen, President of CIHSC and iba pa!!! Thank you for allowing me to seat with you sa row na yun! :p
Everything was nice. Almost perfect. Perfectly human, that is! Perfect enough for us, forerunners, sa ganitong event. A bit blurry vision from the emcee, a bit pitchy voice of a nervous singer, and so on and so on. But everything still failed not to be perfect. :)
This one is really nice. Dami ko din natutunan sa event na 'to. In the middle of the event, of the show, I had the chance to reflect that my being there is different and was actually a blessing. I enjoyed the time instead of being the same old Matthew who used to do boring and repetitive things, learning just another extension of what I already know. Haha.
Uh-oh, right now my head is beginning to feel light and dizzy na. Haha. Hilo at antok nako. Wait! Di pa pala ako nakakapag-dinner!
As I finish out this blog, I just have a few words to say: "don't tell me you want out of this, don't say goodbye this can't be it cos it's not worth it!" (Note: yan po ang exactong lines ng kantang pinakikinggan ko right now, hahaha. :p) Geh, see you (myself around in the mirror? wahaha!) :p
ZZzzzz_______zzzzzzZZZZZ
P.S.
Kuya Gelo, hehehe... Yep, ganda nga. Hahaha. Kuya Abet, mainit na labanan! Hahaha. :) Galing nilang lahat! ;)
Am I Made a Liar?
It's hard when you're the only witness
To a fault that somebody committed
Nobody else knows and yet they conclude
They've seen nothing yet they intrude
It's difficult when they talk and mock
Like you're being pushed against a rock
You don't know wether you should even fight
Or let them harm you though it ain't right
It turns out to be, I'm the villain
The tables turned, my hands bear stain
It can't be avoided, I'm the star
I ask then, "am I made a liar?"
But sometimes you just gotta talk
You're strong and you've feet to walk
It need not be a battle
Just to state your case is all that matters
Let's all accept that we do get angry
So it is, let's not prolong the story
Right the things that we could right
Forgive, forget, then you'll feel light
Noteys: hehe... Unfair kasi eh... At last, nasabi ko na din! Kasi, parang one-sided story talaga. You gotta defend yourself talaga at times when you need to. Simply clarify things. Tapos. Minsan we just get angry, we're just human. Pero, forgive pa rin, correct what can be corrected, and forget. :) Hehe...
But, I really had a question na "am I made a liar because they said so?" Parang it's like you'd just want to believe what they're saying against you even if it ain't true and lose na lang? It's not about losing anyway. It's about justice. :( parang wala nang justice so you just agree with the situation na lang ba? Pero, if you speak up, it's not always the best thing to do in every case. Depende pa rin yan. There are times that you just need to keep quiet. Mas okay pa rin if you're the type of person who can keep it all up inside. Hehe. Hmmmm, ma-try kaya next time? Pero regarding the things that you should say, never hesitate. As long as with respect and integrity. Hehe. I've learned a lot from the experience.
God bless! :)
To a fault that somebody committed
Nobody else knows and yet they conclude
They've seen nothing yet they intrude
It's difficult when they talk and mock
Like you're being pushed against a rock
You don't know wether you should even fight
Or let them harm you though it ain't right
It turns out to be, I'm the villain
The tables turned, my hands bear stain
It can't be avoided, I'm the star
I ask then, "am I made a liar?"
But sometimes you just gotta talk
You're strong and you've feet to walk
It need not be a battle
Just to state your case is all that matters
Let's all accept that we do get angry
So it is, let's not prolong the story
Right the things that we could right
Forgive, forget, then you'll feel light
Noteys: hehe... Unfair kasi eh... At last, nasabi ko na din! Kasi, parang one-sided story talaga. You gotta defend yourself talaga at times when you need to. Simply clarify things. Tapos. Minsan we just get angry, we're just human. Pero, forgive pa rin, correct what can be corrected, and forget. :) Hehe...
But, I really had a question na "am I made a liar because they said so?" Parang it's like you'd just want to believe what they're saying against you even if it ain't true and lose na lang? It's not about losing anyway. It's about justice. :( parang wala nang justice so you just agree with the situation na lang ba? Pero, if you speak up, it's not always the best thing to do in every case. Depende pa rin yan. There are times that you just need to keep quiet. Mas okay pa rin if you're the type of person who can keep it all up inside. Hehe. Hmmmm, ma-try kaya next time? Pero regarding the things that you should say, never hesitate. As long as with respect and integrity. Hehe. I've learned a lot from the experience.
God bless! :)
Monday, February 11, 2008
Promise
You promise me
That you won't do this anymore
You go and tell me
That all this, no more
Take it from this moment
When you're strong
Say it from the heart
Cos this won't last long
You promise me
With words that bind us
You go and tell me
That no one will stop us
You gotta be strong
Cos I draw my breath from you
We won't stay here this long
Cos we have our rescue
Now prepare
Cos you will fly
Don't ever stare
Behind to the lies
Let's run away
While their eyes are still at slumber
I'm not gonna stay
Cos my home is out there
Promise me again
Hold my hand and say
Tell me under the rain
That [forever] you'll stay this way
Simple notes: Capture the moment, say your promise. You're strong for some reason -- and that is for you to use it. We're not always strong, yet we're not always weak. Take the chance you get that you're at your best. It is a gift, it is grace.
Even if life's not all perfect, at least you've done the most of what can be done at times when you can do something...
That you won't do this anymore
You go and tell me
That all this, no more
Take it from this moment
When you're strong
Say it from the heart
Cos this won't last long
You promise me
With words that bind us
You go and tell me
That no one will stop us
You gotta be strong
Cos I draw my breath from you
We won't stay here this long
Cos we have our rescue
Now prepare
Cos you will fly
Don't ever stare
Behind to the lies
Let's run away
While their eyes are still at slumber
I'm not gonna stay
Cos my home is out there
Promise me again
Hold my hand and say
Tell me under the rain
That [forever] you'll stay this way
Simple notes: Capture the moment, say your promise. You're strong for some reason -- and that is for you to use it. We're not always strong, yet we're not always weak. Take the chance you get that you're at your best. It is a gift, it is grace.
Even if life's not all perfect, at least you've done the most of what can be done at times when you can do something...
Saturday, February 9, 2008
(Ode to) The Blind
I sit and talk a little
There is silence in my eyes
I walk and feel a lot
There is darkness all around
I never knew what I
Look like and [how I] appear to be
I'd love to enjoy colors too
Yet I just wasn't gifted to see
But deep inside I know
That I am blessed beyond my sight
My world's a little different yet
I've more of what others do not
It has never been comfortable
To accept my uncommon state
Still it ain't hard to see
The gift ingrained inside
I know I might be blind
But care to see much more
This is just a physical state
Much lesser than the real
I have a lot inside
Sees things that not all see
And now I thank [my] God
Who wonderf'lly formed me
My notes:
I had this in mind when I once was in a jeepney boarded with a number of blind men and women.
One evening, as I entered the crowded jeep, I signaled to a man to please move for a little space. I asked the two ladies beside him to move a little too. When the jeepney's engine finally started, only then did I realize that the man who seemed to ignore me when I signalled him was a blind man. I also noticed that there was not only one, but several blind individuals there. With that in mind, I began to forget the change that I was supposed to recieve. But, it was too late...
There I tried to formulate something for these blind men and women around me. I felt something different for them -- their blessedness even in their state. Even though they're different, they have something that we, people who have the gift of sight, do not.
Hope you like it! :)
There is silence in my eyes
I walk and feel a lot
There is darkness all around
I never knew what I
Look like and [how I] appear to be
I'd love to enjoy colors too
Yet I just wasn't gifted to see
But deep inside I know
That I am blessed beyond my sight
My world's a little different yet
I've more of what others do not
It has never been comfortable
To accept my uncommon state
Still it ain't hard to see
The gift ingrained inside
I know I might be blind
But care to see much more
This is just a physical state
Much lesser than the real
I have a lot inside
Sees things that not all see
And now I thank [my] God
Who wonderf'lly formed me
My notes:
I had this in mind when I once was in a jeepney boarded with a number of blind men and women.
One evening, as I entered the crowded jeep, I signaled to a man to please move for a little space. I asked the two ladies beside him to move a little too. When the jeepney's engine finally started, only then did I realize that the man who seemed to ignore me when I signalled him was a blind man. I also noticed that there was not only one, but several blind individuals there. With that in mind, I began to forget the change that I was supposed to recieve. But, it was too late...
There I tried to formulate something for these blind men and women around me. I felt something different for them -- their blessedness even in their state. Even though they're different, they have something that we, people who have the gift of sight, do not.
Hope you like it! :)
Thursday, January 31, 2008
World of Fantasies
We don't live in a world of Fantasies. We're not in a world of dreams. We are in REALITY where we have to work for the things that we need, and appreciate what we have. That means less complaining and a little balanced dreaming. To dream, though, is not a crime. It is supposed to help us -- not make us lose hope. That's life.
Love, on the other hand, is actually the hardest thing to FIND. You cannot find it just anywhere. Love isn't easy to give. You cannot just find it from a street-corner. It's no joke. Ü
Love, on the other hand, is actually the hardest thing to FIND. You cannot find it just anywhere. Love isn't easy to give. You cannot just find it from a street-corner. It's no joke. Ü
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
The Modern Generation
We've been praying
Devout as we are
We've been wishing
That there will come an hour
In our hands we hold
Little beads, a cross
Since young we've been told
To please our Big Boss
As I open my eyes
I end the rite and see
What has become of us
Who once was said to be
There's a question on my mind
A powerhouse, are we?
We promised those around
We might've spoken bluntly
The time before they've ruined
Could it ever be undone?
Our names today are stained
Can we work today as one?
Today, we are still waiting
For new hope to arise
Onto ourselves looking
We will win the prize
We are the modern generation
We are not a few
I call for our action
We can make things new
My notes: this is supposed to be related to the Philippine's social structure today. I hope I get the "feel".
Devout as we are
We've been wishing
That there will come an hour
In our hands we hold
Little beads, a cross
Since young we've been told
To please our Big Boss
As I open my eyes
I end the rite and see
What has become of us
Who once was said to be
There's a question on my mind
A powerhouse, are we?
We promised those around
We might've spoken bluntly
The time before they've ruined
Could it ever be undone?
Our names today are stained
Can we work today as one?
Today, we are still waiting
For new hope to arise
Onto ourselves looking
We will win the prize
We are the modern generation
We are not a few
I call for our action
We can make things new
My notes: this is supposed to be related to the Philippine's social structure today. I hope I get the "feel".
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